And Now We Drink Episode 263 with Blake Blossom

Joining the table tonight, Blake Blossom! Blake is an open book in this tell all interview. Blake covers topics like her thoughts on dating celebrities including an insight to how many have slid into her DMs. From there Blake tells Matt Slayer about some wild camming experiences. Blake also talks about a few of her dream scenes she wants to shoot, one including a “fat Santa”. Scandalous stories as Blake tells about dudes lying about sleeping with her! She discusses her struggles with body dysmorphia is very open about the procedures she's had. Blake candidly talks about her positions on Sugar Daddies, feature dancing and escorting. Blake and Matt also give a short anatomy lesson and talk about IRL relationships, Blake discusses STD’s and industry considerations, Most importantly Blake will go through your phone! All this and more on And Now We Drink!

• Transcript

  Matt Slayer Yeah. Now it's more fun. But this is not hell. Even if it was the MTA. I don't care.

  Blake Blossom Oh, fucking. Oh, I don't even. I don't even know what I would be like on DMD.

  Matt Slayer I don't either. I mean, for myself, I have zero. It would be like on the MTA.

  I don't know. I don't even know what it does to you.

  Matt Slayer Oh, it's a very, very intense hallucinogenic.

  I feel, but it doesn't EMT It's the least bad, like next to ketamine because it has the least amount of side effects that are, like, actually harmful.

  Matt Slayer Yeah. And it's also done real fast. Like, your identity shifts, like, 12 to 20 minutes. Oh. And that's my biggest beef with hallucinogens is. Yeah.

  Blake Blossom This not long enough. Well, I'm a, I'm a fucking pussy as I won't do them. I'm allergic to mushrooms too. You're allergic.

  Matt Slayer To mushrooms?

  Blake Blossom Yeah. To fungus.

  Matt Slayer That is the goddamn worst. I know. Mushrooms are fun.

  Yeah. And aspergillus makes which is like what they put in my blue cheese and like, the mold spores.

  Blake Blossom What the fuck?

  Matt Slayer And eggs and eggs Oh, poor, poor child. Oh, no eggs. No fungus. But so is it just blue cheese or, like, normal cheese? OK.

  Blake Blossom I don't really know for sure. It just is aspergillus. I don't do that much research.

  Matt Slayer Like this other stuff will find out if it kills me the hard way.

  Blake Blossom Fucker. Oh, my God.

  Matt Slayer How'd you find out about the allergy?

  I did a blood test because I was. I've had really bad acne for almost like ten years now, and I was like, I'm sick of this shit.

  Blake Blossom And I refuse.

  To, like, take any more medication for.

  Blake Blossom It.

  So I was like, all right, let's let's think of, like, other ways that, you know, what, what could be causing this inflammation? So I was like, I bet I might have, like, a food allergy or something because they were saying that your intestines and your gut health is connected to your skin and whatever that, you know, all that.

  Blake Blossom Type of jazz they want to sell you.

  But I got one and it was covered by my insurance, thank God, because it was like almost $400 for one test. Yeah, but like I had a bunch of shit pop up, like Tuna came up Thereport came up there for sensitivity coffee, black tea, sweet potato, like the most random shit.

  Matt Slayer That sounds like your suicide note got.

  Blake Blossom There were 13 threes right?

  Matt Slayer I can't have coffee port much.

  Well, it's just like it's a test to gauge. Like, if I'm drinking coffee every day and I'm having, like, serious issues. Oh, well, maybe if your blood says that you have a sensitivity.

  Blake Blossom To it cut back. You know.

  If you have.

  Blake Blossom Pre, you're freaking conditions cut back.

  Matt Slayer Oh, no. Look, doc, I'm going to die without caffeine. No, that's horrible.

  Blake Blossom Oh, caffeine. I don't know about that.

  I don't.

  Blake Blossom Think. Can you be allergic to caffeine?

  Matt Slayer I'm sure we're humans. We can be close to fucking everything.

  Blake Blossom Mm. I feel like that's.

  Something like some grow.

  Blake Blossom Like I'm allergic to caffeine, IKEA.

  Matt Slayer More for the rest of us, girl. Like, if that's. That's how the hell you want to fucking die on more for the rest of us instead it's still coffee. Oh, man, that's just. No, that's horrible.

  I don't know why. It's very interesting. I don't. I don't know the exact science behind it, but I was like, OK.

  Blake Blossom Infinite labs pop off fucking tell me.

  Because ever since I stopped eating eggs, I realized, like, my skin inflammation has gone down my, like, my entire body. There's just, like.

  Blake Blossom Less.

  Swelling and bloat. But who knew? Are you allergic to any?

  Matt Slayer Oh, possibly. I just ignore it and keep going anyways. In theory, in fucking theory, I should be able to talk to my mother has like a laundry list of technologies and my sister from both. She's my half sister from both her parents are. She doesn't have celiacs, but she has like, gluten intolerance.

  Blake Blossom Yeah.

  Matt Slayer And I just. I go gluten I just give it. Give it to me. Give it. I don't give a fuck. Give it like it's probably causing my random bouts of heartburn and insomnia. And probably, oh, a lot of other things that I'm not living the best life. Cheers.

  Yeah, but think about it. Like, people who have, like, peanut allergies, it varies in degree are like bee stings. It varies. There's people who, like, can't even get one bee sting. And I'll say, like, ah, swelled up and die a minute. Or then there's some people who, you know, can make it.

  Blake Blossom In 45 minutes to their urgent care.

  Matt Slayer For Macaulay Culkin and my girl.

  I haven't seen that movie.

  Matt Slayer Oh shit.

  Spoilers but I know the I know the he's like a little boy and then he like falls in love with a.

  Blake Blossom Little girl.

  Matt Slayer And I love a bee sting at the end.

  Are you fucking serious.

  Blake Blossom Damage.

  Matt Slayer Is that spoilers.

  Blake Blossom What is wrong with Hollywood. Let's make him die of a bee sting.

  Matt Slayer Hey that movie came out like 20 plus years ago we're still talking about it.

  Blake Blossom I.

  Matt Slayer I mean it's an intro of a love story that is a little atypical.

  Blake Blossom It's so horrible. Forgive me. Laughing about children dying from bee stings really die.

  Matt Slayer It's not like, it's not like you're laughing about real dead children.

  Blake Blossom True.

  Matt Slayer Not yet. The show's not over yet.

  Blake Blossom Oh, my God.

  Matt Slayer I'm a don't worry. By the end of this, perfectly sober, I have dark humor.

  It's, like.

  Matt Slayer Awesome. You're on the right show.

  Blake Blossom I know. You've also like.

  Surprised when I'm like, oh, yeah, I perv out Mike Pervan creepy mike. Definitely. Porn made me more creepy. Because I like, think of like I start like.

  Blake Blossom It starts morphing into my real personality.

  Matt Slayer Women with different personalities and your real personality. Oh, my God. What's. Thank you for the browser space for the audio audience. That was a full on like brassiere that face right there.

  Blake Blossom Macaulay, where are you?

  Matt Slayer I'm probably not far from here. Were in Hollywood.

  Blake Blossom Yeah, he probably he probably doesn't like girls like me. He probably likes a I don't know what he would like upon him. Macaulay Culkin, tell me what you look up on. Point him and that's me.

  Matt Slayer You know, that's going to become a clip that I'm going to ask him when I post it. Right.

  Blake Blossom Do it.

  Matt Slayer On.

  Blake Blossom I'm a big fan.

  Matt Slayer Hey, maybe there'll there'll be a love connection that happens out of it.

  Blake Blossom No.

  No, no. I don't think I don't think I would want to every day any celebrities. I feel like that would be like, way too much fucking scrutiny. Think about it. Like, I guess there's different levels of celebrity. If it was someone in like, TV or.

  Blake Blossom Movies.

  Maybe, but no fucking ballplayers.

  Blake Blossom No NFL, none of them.

  No sports guys. I least I wouldn't be public with them because it's like, just. Just how many times are you going to cheat on me?

  Blake Blossom How many times you get all your baby mamas? You know.

  Matt Slayer First firsthand experience error?

  Blake Blossom Uh, not really. I've had some.

  People message me, but I've never, like, gone through with it. There's only I guess, like, one TV personality guy.

  Blake Blossom But he was super chill.

  He's on in network holy shit.

  Matt Slayer Yeah. You're telling me you're like, I know.

  Blake Blossom Exactly. No, he's a wonderful guy.

  And that's was, like, really interesting.

  Matt Slayer Was it was.

  Blake Blossom Well, fuck now. Fuck now, Ryan Seacrest, leave me alone. My God. I don't think he would enjoy my presence. He'd be like, he'd either be like, All right, we're giving you a show. You're fucking insane. Or we're bringing in restraining order on this girl.

  Matt Slayer Possibly both.

  This is the first season.

  Blake Blossom Plotline.

  Matt Slayer Just he's like, Here, take a show. Get out of my life. If you see me at the studio, just walk the fuck away.

  Blake Blossom But I.

  Want that 5% for.

  Blake Blossom Life.

  Matt Slayer By a number of celebrities. How many have slid into the Dems? Oh.

  Blake Blossom Hmm. We like 100.

  Over the last, like, two and a half years.

  Matt Slayer Hundred in a two, maybe.

  Like a hundred. Oh, there's actually there's one guy who's been in a fucked her movies that I love. I grew up dancing and that's almost say that's almost as I grew up dancing and I love these fucking movies that he was in. And he messaged me on Instagram and then my fucking Instagram got.

  Blake Blossom Deleted and I was like, but he was like, yeah, next time you're in L.A. Like, let's hang out with John Travolta.

  Matt Slayer Now I'm thinking of dancing celebrities do. Saturday Night Fever.

  Blake Blossom Yeah, you wouldn't know him by name.

  But anyone who's seen the movies would know exactly who he is. But now he looks different.

  Blake Blossom That's all I'm saying.

  Matt Slayer So that could be john travolta. OK.

  Blake Blossom Hey. Ooh. Be a John Travolta. Have a lot in common. We love both jackson private jets. I've never been on one.

  Matt Slayer I'll let John Travolta slide into your dms. He's got a whole fleet.

  Blake Blossom He seems sas or sea demon on that.

  Matt Slayer Who knows?

  Why doesn't he use that for, like, if you have a whole fleet of planes? Like, I feel like if you should be doing some humanity work, you know?

  Matt Slayer Well, yeah, but.

  Bring some food to fucking people who are hungry.

  Blake Blossom You know, drop some water off on your way to Thailand or wherever you're in Bali or whatever. They're going for fucking Christmas, you know?

  Matt Slayer And that's the problem with the real wealthy. They tend to hoard that shit oh.

  Maybe I'd be.

  Blake Blossom Like that too, though.

  Matt Slayer Don't worry. You'll have your time. You still have time.

  Blake Blossom I spend a lot of money. OK, I'm in. I am helping the fucking economy. I buy gas almost every other fucking day.

  Matt Slayer I don't know how much that really helps the economy. Besides the stockholders for the oil companies.

  Blake Blossom I pay effective taxes.

  Matt Slayer Well, why don't you have a better accountant then? Come on.

  Blake Blossom No, no. Oh, that's the thing.

  You know it's actually, I'm going through issues with the IRS right now, and it's so interesting, like being like a young woman who's now in, like, a completely different fucking tax bracket than, like, 90% of people there. You don't fucking realize, girl. OK, if I make, you know, let's. Let's just start a number. If I make a quarter million dollars a year, turn 50,000 and I spend $200,000 of that that year and I only have that $50,000, what the fuck are you going to do come April when they're like.

  Blake Blossom Girl, we need.

  Our 30% because you don't have it. So like I've been like.

  Blake Blossom So.

  Fucking careful with like not blowing my money. Like I don't drive a crazy car. I just got an apartment this year. I was living at home.

  Blake Blossom I was doing live, I was, I.

  Just finally was like, all right, I finally need to get some things situated, get my own area. But I was like out of town for like over 200 days last year.

  Matt Slayer Jesus. Well, what you should be doing is renting places in various cities and then that studio space, that's a business expense.

  Blake Blossom Yeah.

  My ADHD prevents me from a.

  Blake Blossom Lot of these, unless I'm, like, on Adderall, like, it takes me a little bit to get sick. I don't think I have the energy to, like, have multiple studio spaces.

  Matt Slayer Max, why do you hire someone to manage the ships?

  Blake Blossom Oh, yeah. Just so I.

  Need another person in my fucking circle knowing my business and shit. That's just what I want. I want more fucking groupies.

  Blake Blossom Around me.

  Matt Slayer Well, don't hire a fucking groupie. Don't. Well, hire some fucking porn mobile like. But I would love to manage your shit for, you know, find a fucking someone who actually deals with real celebrities.

  Blake Blossom Yeah, but I don't know. I don't.

  Trust anyone. I don't know. I really don't, Matt. Like, think about it. Think about it. Like, I'm so vulnerable all the time, like being fucking naked on camera all the time. Like, why would I want to just give more opportunities for people to, you know, kind of learn who I really am, huh?

  Matt Slayer Well, that's how you can.

  Blake Blossom Learn my secrets.

  Matt Slayer Well, you find someone who's fucking licensed and bonded and, like, a proven commodity. Well.

  Yeah, you're right. I need. I need a seven.

  Matt Slayer I don't. Don't fucking hire an assistant that you meet on exotica, like.

  Blake Blossom Oh, my God, I've never.

  Been to exotica, but I heard shit popped off this year.

  Matt Slayer And Miami was just last weekend.

  Blake Blossom Yeah.

  And, you know, it's really disappointing about that. Is there's certain people not that I personally like, really hate or have beef towards, but I see that they're there and I just feel like some people just I guess, think of like, all the people that are like, kind of like rejected and not really, like, worked with the lot. And you're kind of like, why aren't you like, you know, in kind of like the mix of everyone else and it's kind of like you have to kind of take that chance with people.

  And being at those conventions, like, all fucking swarms of people got canned people. You got only fans people. You have people who used to do porn. You have people who are like porn adjacent, you know, and then you have like guys who just hire, you know, the girls and then they show up and they're.

  Blake Blossom Like, I'm a no offense creator.

  Matt Slayer I have a camera.

  Blake Blossom And you're like, Just because you're a fucking age where not only does not mean that.

  You can just pay my rent, I'm going to come over here. But yeah, it's, it's, it's really disappointing to see some, some fucking gross ass people mingling with my friends. I get really pissed.

  Matt Slayer Intel is.

  And it's recent because it's fresh. It's fresh. I saw a couple of videos and a couple photos, and I was really, really disappointed about. But you know what, Matt? I'm going to let people fall on their fucking own. I'm done helping people and being like, Oh, no, you shouldn't work with this person because of this, this, and this.

  At this point, it's not my fucking business.

  Blake Blossom Girl. Learn the hard way, because then it almost comes.

  Across as, like, I don't know if you've ever liked someone, and maybe your friend likes them, and they're like, Oh, nah, man, she's a.

  Blake Blossom Bitch, you know? Or She stinks, you know.

  That type of shit. So you don't like her. And then he sleeps in right is kind of like that.

  Matt Slayer So this is why I generally take people on first and like, your interaction with them may not be my interaction with them. So, like, I tend to judge people on my own merit, on their own merits, with the exception of like, people were like, that guy's a serial rapist. Like, OK, cool. Well, that guy Oliver, it.

  Blake Blossom Oh my God, you had someone here that was.

  Matt Slayer No, no, no.

  Blake Blossom Oh, so oh, my God.

  Matt Slayer I've been involved in the industry of juice and whatever for over a decade. I've been around for fucking ever.

  Blake Blossom Yeah.

  Matt Slayer So I've had interactions with people that, you know, have those reputations over the years or that some of them are still around.

  Interesting enough.

  Matt Slayer Yeah. And it's just like oh, I'm going to don't believe my friends on that one. But sometimes people just have, they don't mesh and I'm not going to just disqualify someone just cause like.

  Yeah, it's more about like, stupid, superficial shit. Like, she cut me like she doesn't like me or oh, this. Like when it's stupid stuff like that, then you're like, OK, insecurity, jealousy, you know, competitiveness with, you know, all this stuff that we're all in competition for.

  Blake Blossom But yeah, I.

  I'm going into the exotica in New Jersey, so I'll definitely be at that one. Yeah. Rickie Johnson's booth for Rickie is room. So that should be fun because I'm going to be like with my girlfriends who have also been on the site and it's going to be a whole thing. Whereas like if I just have like a booth by myself, I'd be fucking overwhelmed.

  And at expose, I cut Angela White's line. Oh my God, she had like a hundred people in her line.

  Blake Blossom And I was like, Well, I say, Hey, Angela. And they were like, Oh my God, it's Adalind. Blake, it's Adrienne Blake.

  And I, like, literally was like, Fuck yeah.

  Blake Blossom I'm with Angela. I like, I like all you guys, but I.

  Had to.

  Blake Blossom I had to.

  Matt Slayer Yeah. I mean, why the fuck would you wait in that line? Why?

  Blake Blossom I know her oh, my God. I hope, I hope. She laughs since she knows I adore her.

  Matt Slayer Angela's the fucking best I honestly, I can't really imagine Angela being, like, negative towards anybody. Like, I.

  I'm sure I've never heard her say one bad word about anyone ever.

  Matt Slayer Yeah, I haven't either. I'm sure it happens. She is human, believe it or not, folks. Angela White is human. Good. You might not believe me based on her output, but she is a human being. So I'm sure there are some people that Angela's like and not the biggest fan of, but.

  Yeah, but I saw her standing there, and she was like, she was. And the thing that I found was really interesting about her compared to some of the other people. It was like some girls were like, oh, ok. Is 30 seconds stir up.

  Blake Blossom Bye bye.

  If you're not going to be buying a sign picture, you're not going to buy something from me then. OK, bye. Like, I was giving out free Polaroids every fucking day, all day. I was like.

  Blake Blossom I don't give a shit.

  Let's take a Polaroid. I'll sign it for you. But she had people like they were talking for like, you know, longer than 5 minutes. So I just found that that was like really showing of like her character, like as a person that she really cares. And we'll talk to you, you know, and answer all your questions. So now I try to be like that with my fans instead of like, oh, my God, you know, I want to be a kind just be like, fuck off.

  Blake Blossom I don't want to tell you share, motherfucker. Like, leave me alone.

  I like, seriously, I'm like, why do you give a fuck what I'm wearing? Or I like my panty color or.

  Blake Blossom How many dicks I want to suck in the day?

  Matt Slayer They just want to know you because they're having without you what they probably consider in their brain to be an intimate moment. That orgasm is probably an intimate moment for them. So if they can truly be intimate with you in some way, shape or form, it probably intense, makes it much more intense, intensifies the situation for them. This is just me orgasm.

  Matt Slayer I don't fucking know.

  Oh, my God. Well, let me tell you this fucking shit. I started camming. I started fucking camming a whole different fucking room and.

  Matt Slayer I'm so sorry.

  No, I was like, you know what? Like, I made a free only fan, so I was like, OK, like, how can I get more people to, like, follow my only fans, you know, if they're, you know, my, my fans from Twitter, if you want to follow me there and, you know, I post different stuff that I don't put on Twitter.

  So, like, how can I promote that? And I was like, well, how can I just promote my fucking brand and.

  Blake Blossom Poor that share? Yeah, that's it. That was a quick pour.

  Matt Slayer For the camera. This is how much the bottle has gone in me already. Blake is not drinking at all. I love that she is playing my normal role. Well, yeah. Drink more and more, drink more, drink even drink more. But then I have to kill the cameras and, like, head stop all that. All pass out.

  Blake Blossom Hey, look what.

  Matt Slayer I have so that everyday during the show.

  Blake Blossom I didn't. I don't even think I introduced myself.

  Matt Slayer Oh, no, we just got right into it.

  Blake Blossom Hi, I'm Blake Blossom. I have a free olympians interview.

  Only fans. And now we're talking about I started coming on cam soda mainly because I do live shows for them. Like, paid my shows by Yamaha. Like, literally, I was like, what the fuck is this shit? So first I fucked up and had my tokens really low.

  Blake Blossom Because I didn't. I didn't even know.

  And I didn't know how to, like, add any of, like, the little spinny fuckin spin wheels or the lottery or coin toss like they have little things that, like, encourage fans to do the tokens, and I didn't really understand that. So I was just on there and I mean, I sat on there for like 6 hours.

  Blake Blossom And.

  I mean, I made, I made, I made surprisingly more than I were like I could, but I was just really surprised that the like.

  Blake Blossom I don't, I don't know, maybe it's just.

  Because everyone knows that they're in there together and the chat was just so fucking weird and crazy. And what's so interesting about cameras is they wanted you that private show with you. And I don't do like face time calls or like Skype. Do you like do you do you interview people that do Skype calls or like.

  Matt Slayer Yeah, I do occasionally. I do people, you know, have people on that.

  Blake Blossom You do them. You buy them.

  Matt Slayer Oh, no, no. That's always been a weird interaction for me. Like, I never got the appeal of camming. It's like, Hi, I'm going to try to vie for your attention in this room full of dudes it's like going to a strip club where there is one dancer, and then I'm going to try to get her attention by spending the most money.

  Yeah, that's literally what it is.

  Blake Blossom That is literally what it is. So I have like, so I get a lot of God that maybe took my breath away some wavering. If you're maybe I need to quit. I quit like three times this year.

  Matt Slayer Oh, so I tell you, I hear them because then throw.

  Blake Blossom That.

  Matt Slayer Away. Now, though, actually, I'm a horrible enabler. Take another hit. It's fine.

  Blake Blossom Take it poor for it.

  Matt Slayer Alcoholic.

  Blake Blossom Davis Hey, we're at your grave. We don't care right now.

  Matt Slayer All I have to do is operate a door at some point. There have been episodes of the show where I've built the door. Exactly there have been episodes of this where I've been so drunk the next morning, like I save the episode.

  Blake Blossom Oh, is it still rolling? Are the cameras still rolling? Imagine downloading that fucking file of like, oh, SD card.

  Matt Slayer OK, yeah. 2100 28 gig. US these like, fuck. OK, well, I'm going to just put that in and I'll be back in a couple of hours.

  Fuck exactly. But the requests I was getting for the cam shows were so weird, but the weirdest one beside like the app anti-gay. They want you to say slurs. They're like, Oh, call me a slur.

  Matt Slayer Like, that's a trap. I feel like those are fucking.

  Oh my fucking God. Like sir, why do you think that you can come to my page and even fucking request that? What about me? Thinks that you can ask them, but they're just ballsy as fuck online. Well, but they do. The race requests who they want you to call you racial slurs.

  Matt Slayer And especially with Tamika. I feel like that is a fucking trap because they'll fucking screencap. You were some shit. And then all of a sudden I have this footage without any context of bleep dropping an n bomb or saying something like transphobic or whatever the fuck they're paid for.

  Blake Blossom Exactly. Exactly.

  And it's like, why?

  Blake Blossom Why that? That's what I try to understand sometimes.

  When they asked me the show, I'm like, Why? What happened? To you?

  Blake Blossom This means you.

  Fucking want to ask this shit. You fucking type it out, bro. But the craziest one is this guy kept going in a chat and was like, Watch me, come on. My girlfriend and I was like.

  Blake Blossom OK, well, request a private jet then dumb ass. Like, fucking get the chat going requested. I can't just be like, Yeah, let's this what you cool your girlfriend? Oh.

  So I was like kind of playing a it for him. And then there was a couple other people I was chatting to in there that were doing a lot of tokens and spinning the wheels. So I was doing a bunch of other stuff and finally he requests said, Oh my God, I don't even know if this was fucking real and if it is like, I don't know, I had no idea if it was real.

  So he is like, it's like from his POV and I can see him jacking off his dick and it's this like a normal, like, average. I don't know, maybe he is white and he was running like a black shirt that covered his belly. No tattoos or anything because I look for that shit.

  Blake Blossom I'm like, You got tattoos? I'm going to I'm going to identify you.

  And he's jacking off and his fucking girlfriend is wearing, like, black shorts and like another black shirt sleeping on the fucking bed like well. But here's the thing. Why I think it wasn't real. Who the fuck sleeps like this? I'm sorry. Not even people in fucking TV shows sleep like this. And it just was like.

  Blake Blossom It.

  Just looked to stage and she wasn't moving and he was standing over her, and he was like, oh, tell it. Like, telling me to, like, say stuff like, oh, come on, her. And I think her name was like, Brianna or something like Brianna. And he's like, tell me that. I want you to come on, bring up. And I literally was like, I almost didn't even believe if it was real because, you know, and he came on her fucking ass.

  He came on her fucking ass. And then immediately ended the chat and I'm like, I'm left like looking at myself in the chat, like, he just came on.

  Blake Blossom Brianna.

  Matt Slayer That is not the worse shot that Brianna has taken in recent memory, OK? He said.

  Blake Blossom On the right.

  Matt Slayer I was thinking, Taylor.

  Blake Blossom Oh, I don't I don't know who that is.

  Matt Slayer She was on was shot by the police. Some Kentucky couple is one of them. So I.

  Blake Blossom Don't watch the news.

  Matt Slayer That was one of the things that sparked a lot of the Black Lives Matter protests last year. Oh, that was a super dark I.

  Need to be more educated.

  Matt Slayer That was a super dark.

  Shame on me for not fucking knowing. Shame on me.

  Matt Slayer That's also wow. I'm much more realistic is like, oh.

  Now I understand your joke.

  Blake Blossom Oh my God, this is a crazy talk.

  Matt Slayer Welcome, welcome. And then, well, the much more real takeaways, that's a bold move with the amount that amount of semen and that amount of black clothing.

  He it I'm telling you, it didn't look real and the sheets weren't on her it looked like someone had like thrown the sheets back on off her. I shoot porn almost every fucking day in the last two and a half years. I you know, when it's when it's staged, like when someone's actually sleeping. But it was, it was very creepy and I was just like, oh my God.

  But you know what I could do? I could go back up in the chat and click him. And I were like, restricted him. So he kind of like or blocked him or whatever the it allows, but what the fuck is that? And it just makes me think if that was my first night fucking camming what are these girls doing every day like in these private chats?

  Matt Slayer Oh, I mean, that's not even the worst story I've ever heard. I had friends who shortly after they got in the industry, they're only getting booked. Everyone's also they had to turn to camera and they're coming as a couple. Mm. And the amount of like scenarios that dudes would ask them to do, like they would turn to him and be like, so call her, know this name and that's my daughter's name in like fucking weird incest play.

  Blake Blossom Yeah. Yeah.

  And you know, it's crazy. I actually know someone that was friends with this guy who used to him. So the story is is that there was a friend group of the guys and they all were like, Bro, that's so cool, you're fucking your stepsister because and they like the friend group actually thought it was super.

  Blake Blossom Cool and this.

  Matt Slayer Is what she hot.

  I don't know. I mean, I don't know, but, but I.

  Matt Slayer Just don't actually condone such.

  Thing. But here's the thing. Like, he's, I think he's like in his late thirties, forties now, but he's like now thinking about how, like, jealous we were and, like, how cool he thought he was now he, like, realizes how fucked up that was and like, just the weird dynamic of, you know, because when you're a young man, you're like, oh, yeah, you know, I got a girl, you know, my girlfriend over here.

  But then it's like when it when it comes to, like, oh, it's right across the hall. It brings up all that weird family relations stuff that is a very, very touchy subject in porn. Very, very. I don't do it anymore. I haven't done it in fucking forever. And, you know, it's fucked up the last video I ever did, I was stepsister.

  It was for new bills, and it's like, it's for Princess Come. I think I'm on the cover of the DVD for it, but it was like, borderline like I from that day out, I was like, never again. I'll never be a stepsister. I'll never be a daughter. Cousin, fucking niece. I won't do it now. Give it, give it to someone else.

  I don't. I don't need it that bad.

  Blake Blossom The check that Becca.

  Matt Slayer So I have theories about that shit. Like, I don't know how much that should actually people are into as much as like, oh, this is the set up. And we just put two hot people together and they're clicking on the scene because it's too hot. People, not necessarily because of the how many people actually give a fuck about the setup person.

  I don't know. Because then you go, then you dove into the concept of like, what is a consumer of porn? Like, who are you making porn for? Because there's so many different people in the world that it's like, you can make porn for pedophiles and you can make porn for fuckin rapists and.

  Matt Slayer Shit and the first one, you definitely cannot legally. And we do not condone such things.

  No, I don't I don't mean it like literally, but you know, it's obviously very fucking geared toward people that.

  Blake Blossom Have oh.

  Matt Slayer No. Like the brightly colored barely legal scenes were like it's.

  Like, why do I need to be wearing a backpack? That's that the children from the children's play, like, why do I need to have my hair in pigtails? Like granny pigtails are cute, but I mean, if you're picking a girl who looks like she's maybe 15 or 16 who just, just physically, you know, she's already 18, but she looks younger and you purposely dress her and stuff like that.

  To me, it just makes me think of like who who is because, you know, as content creators, we're like, OK, who's, who's buying our stuff? What are they? What are they wanting what are the big numbers pulling? And it's like, every fucking time you pull the statistics in, it's like stepsister, stepsister, stepdaughter, fucking number one thing number one thing.

  Matt Slayer I would be curious if you took the same scene and cut it twice, like once with the stub button, you know, bullshit and one without and put them both out there with, you know, different titles or whatever, but put, you know, the exact same sex. Yeah. And see how well it performed. If it was just like, oh, let's hot with whoever or it's because played same old stepbrother give it to me hard.

  Yeah, but there's different degrees of like what you're doing with step porn because the way you post it you can have the scene that's, that's like, you know, a script. There's some type of way that they meet, there's some type of reason why they're fucking, you know, and then there's the and it's very obvious that that's what it is.

  It's titled that way. Then you have the scenes that are just normal and they're just titled Stepsister Fucks and it's like a POV video. The girl's face, this fucking cut from here, the POV, her head's not even in it. And it's like, I fucking myself sister in the morning.

  Blake Blossom Yeah, fucking of you. We don't know who this bitch is, right?

  Matt Slayer You don't know what's going on.

  Blake Blossom You just fucking her. We get to see her face. Like.

  Matt Slayer For me, I honestly hate that trend in porn. I hate the trend of fucking the head cut off. I, I don't know what I am trying to don't have self-gratification. I want to see that the girl I in fact into is having a good time and if her face is not in the fucking frame, I can't tell that she's having a good time.

  I get in really heated debates with people about what it really means to be a porn star.

  Blake Blossom I oh my god, there's just a whole other fucking.

  Matt Slayer So what? What is your take?

  Blake Blossom Oh, shit. To dove.

  Into.

  Matt Slayer Oh, we got time. So what is your take on this?

  Like, the stuff that I've been doing. Like, I'm on set, filming in front of cameras, I'm reading scripts, I have my legal documents that I fill out. I have the video recordings of every time. You know that to me, if I'm working for other people, like, I feel like that gives me more of a title of saying that I'm a porn star rather than I'm just like, blossom x x x on camera, you know, or cameras.

  OK, I'm saying, you know, but it's also like when you're developing, like, a brand, like, who do you want to be? You know, like, what is.

  Blake Blossom Who.

  Who am I making porn for? You know, like, what am I gearing my what is my fucking market?

  Matt Slayer The paycheck I mean, you're making porn for the paycheck.

  Yeah, but but it's like.

  Blake Blossom There's there's the one guy give you.

  The clown. He's actually really scary. He looks like a Slipknot character. So honestly, like.

  Blake Blossom It's a little scary.

  Matt Slayer Bravo on the Slipknot reference. Bravo. I'm friends, by the way.

  Blake Blossom My friend Zack Miles is a huge Slipknot fan.

  Matt Slayer So Zach Wilde of Black Label Society Zach, wild or wild, don't know.

  Blake Blossom But now he's Syd Knox, right? I think that's.

  Is his new.

  Blake Blossom Porn name. Oh.

  Matt Slayer OK.

  But, yeah, his name. There was one that used to be Zach Wilde.

  Matt Slayer Yeah, OK.

  And now there's a new Zach Wilde.

  Matt Slayer OK? Because I'm like, yeah, as not to be like Zach Wilde, the lead singer of Black Labels aside, who's about to go on tour of Pantera. Like.

  Blake Blossom Oh.

  Matt Slayer Yeah. There's a very, very, very, very famous musician named Zach Wild.

  Blake Blossom Oh, my God. Oh, God. There's still Randy Zeigler.

  Matt Slayer And that's the crazy part about porn. Sometimes it's like that very realistically. Could have been a friend of yours the porn and music connection is very, very slim.

  Blake Blossom Really?

  Matt Slayer Oh, yeah.

  Blake Blossom Where are they?

  Matt Slayer Well, obviously in your hundreds of DMS, I'm sure there's a few famous musicians in there.

  Blake Blossom Like rappers. But if you use Auto-Tune.

  I'm just getting so lost.

  Matt Slayer There's a guitar and all. Fuck this.

  I mean, I like rappers, and it's just the stigma of dating a rapper, you know? I don't know. I like I can buy myself a Chanel bag. I don't need you to buy me, like, thinks the fuck am I going to do with it? It's not going to unless it's like a specific one. Like, eBay appreciates and value.

  You know.

  Matt Slayer You can put it right on eBay.

  Blake Blossom Well.

  I'm like, where's they know PED?

  Matt Slayer Hey, look, you know, we're recording this. You can just play it back like when it releases, like, oh, what did me and Matt talk about? OK, cool.

  Blake Blossom Oh, my God. Right.

  Matt Slayer You don't have to take notes. It's OK. But seriously, like, from my time in the industry, I worked in music before I got into porn. Mm hmm. I have much better connections in music from porn than I ever did working in music.

  Interesting.

  Matt Slayer Mostly few friends of mine dating fairly famous musicians.

  Blake Blossom OK, all about pussy. We're always making some musician.

  Matt Slayer Oh, because I first got in, like, rodeoing, and I'm doing security for girls. Mm hmm. And like, one of the girls I used to work for back in the day I blew into Hollywood. I was still living in Vegas. At the time, and she's like, Matt should say, can you babysit my boyfriend, Mike? I guess so. You two will get along, I promise.

  Matt Slayer Is in the middle, and I'm amazed you two will get along. He likes drinking. You have fun. Mm hmm. I guess I'm just different, dude, to be completely fucking lame. Yeah, I guess this is part of the job. And I also him and I are walking to the bar, and you just make some offhand comment like, yeah, when you play for more than 50,000 people, it all looks the same.

  Matt Slayer I'm like, Oh, shit, bro, you're in a real band. And you're playing festivals for. Actually.

  I guess I do have a connection to music. I actually know him. I don't know if any of this how I know Chester Bennington son. I was a high school with him.

  Matt Slayer Oh, shit. How well do you know him?

  Pretty well.

  Matt Slayer Like, biblically.

  Blake Blossom Um. What does that mean? Like you and what? God, do.

  I know him?

  Blake Blossom I haven't talked to him a long time, but he knows you. He knows who I am.

  Matt Slayer I was alluding to that. Had you had sexual relations with that?

  Blake Blossom Yeah.

  Matt Slayer Injustice House?

  Blake Blossom No.

  Matt Slayer Oh, that would have been rad. Like just to make you breakfast afterwards.

  Like that would have been really crazy. My dad would have been. That would have been pretty.

  Blake Blossom Cool, right? Yeah.

  Matt Slayer Wow, that makes me feel old. Like, oh, yeah. Like the park would have been cool for my dad. Like, Oh, that's a band I listen to. Fuck!

  Blake Blossom Oh, my God. I hope you didn't hear. If you see like.

  Matt Slayer Oh, I want to get a.

  Blake Blossom Message to be, like, stop saying my name on the internet, bitch. Like, I didn't say his name pretty easily.

  Matt Slayer Google, who just raised his children OK, I'm just putting that out there. But any man who's upset with you for claiming that you had sex with them on the Internet, fuck their opinion at that point.

  Blake Blossom Oh, well, we've had a couple of liars in the industry that have lied about fucking me.

  Matt Slayer Really? Oh, what was their justification on that shit? Mm.

  Blake Blossom Money oh.

  Oh, I'll never talk to you if you ever claim that. And it was very interesting. So I just in a scene with a friend of mine. Well, he's not really my friend anymore, but I did a scene with this guy, and he, like, lives with his friend and I. We were talking or whatever, you know, showering, like taking turns in the shower and and he goes, oh, yeah, you know, you should film with me and my, my bro.

  And I was like, Oh, well, I've never, I've never done anything with him. Like, you know, not really my thing. To Guy is not my thing, you know? And he was he just kind of went what what do you mean? I said, yeah, I've only met him like twice. And the first time, he barely said anything to me.

  He sat there, you know, and I was just the most awkward thing, and I was like, no, I would now I have no problem telling.

  Blake Blossom You everyone I've fucked. I don't give a shit.

  You know, performer wise.

  Matt Slayer But and celebrities.

  Blake Blossom Summer wise, man. I'm a guy.

  Matt Slayer From wise and celebrity children. She's just nice.

  Blake Blossom But.

  It is a very interesting thing. But I it's like, do I take it as a compliment?

  It depends on who it is as the guy, in my opinion, if.

  Blake Blossom You're kind of like a scrub.

  And kind of like, not really. You don't really know me. You're not really like my friend. It's a very fucking weird. But if it's like my friends like, oh.

  Blake Blossom Yeah, like, you know.

  Joking around, I think it would I wouldn't be as.

  Matt Slayer Weird no matter what.

  Blake Blossom OK, it's it's weird no matter what.

  I've never lied about fucking anyone, you know, like, I don't, I don't think, like, that's cool. I wouldn't make up. Oh, yeah, I fucked that guy. It was crazy.

  Matt Slayer I mean, I've definitely lied about not fucking some people being like, yeah, I definitely not fucked that girl.

  Blake Blossom Oh, see.

  You live in, you learn.

  Matt Slayer Oh, no, no, no.

  Blake Blossom You live in, you learn. You got your man.

  Matt Slayer Oh, no. I have definitely made some poor choices over the years. As I've jokingly said, all over the year is like part of the reason I never want to be male talent is because I like to choose who I fuck. But I made a lot of bad choices over the years, like there have definitely been some like, oh, I, I am sobering up all I'm inside you.

  Matt Slayer I'm like, why am I here? Well, I'm already here, so may as well.

  Blake Blossom God help I haven't. Yeah, I have. In fact.

  Anyone that was like, really.

  Blake Blossom Really bad oh, yeah.

  I can't I can't think of anyone that was, like, really, really bad. There's been like a couple of, of, like, funny stories where, like, you know, he has to stop and, like, take his heart.

  Blake Blossom Medication.

  Matt Slayer And you can't just dropped out is what I want to hear. This whole fucking story. Yeah. So I almost killed the man because he didn't take his natural course.

  No, it wasn't like that. It wasn't like I was hurting him, you know? He was.

  Matt Slayer No, no, he just had a weak heart, and all his blood was in his groin.

  Blake Blossom Yeah, maybe I.

  Was. I'm like, I got really scared for a second. I was like, are you OK? You know, trying to become like.

  Blake Blossom You got over there and over here. I'm like, oh, my God, is he OK here? What? I'm fucking go is guy. He's going to be like, you know, are you doing broken now?

  Matt Slayer Are you doing the math in your head? Like, can I lift this dude to dispose of the body? Or do I.

  Blake Blossom Have oh, there is someone I was there. Thank God. Thank God.

  Matt Slayer Thank God. That is a good like, who was the good friend that was there that would have, like, helped you get rid of his body?

  Blake Blossom No, not like that. But you probably.

  Could have saved him. We probably could have saved him if something did happen. I've seen multiple videos on how to do CPR. I got taught when I was younger, I kind of went through like the CPR thing when I was a nanny, but like, what else do you what else can you learn except me know the basics. So it wasn't like anything in depth.

  It was more about like what to do, like placement on like a child's chest, that type of stuff, to not break their ribs.

  Matt Slayer Right, right. When you do it on adults, it's OK to break the ribs.

  Blake Blossom Well, yeah, yeah. It's OK.

  Matt Slayer I well, my certification expired, but I was CPR certified, that one. But it's OK.

  Really, I believe it because, like, you got to do anything possible.

  Matt Slayer That's still heal death. You don't really heal from.

  Blake Blossom Huh?

  Matt Slayer Last I checked, I.

  Blake Blossom Guess.

  Matt Slayer I know there's revelations happening on the show like you don't heal from death. Matt, tell me more.

  Blake Blossom Oh, my God. Revelations. That's such a funny word.

  Matt Slayer No, but seriously, give me the lead up on almost murdering a man with your vagina.

  No, it was. I was first seen.

  Matt Slayer Oh, it was the first scene.

  And normally I have an age limit because I just don't find it visually appealing.

  Matt Slayer When the old man has big hits. That's the new. I get that.

  No, I mean, it's different when they're bigger than me. I don't mind, like, fucking fat guys, but I will.

  Matt Slayer Oh, my God. You have just launched, like, a million that guy boners on the Internet.

  There's certain things, like, if it's first Santa seen, like, you have to be a really fat Cena. Like, you know, I don't want to fuck you. If you're a skinny Santa, you have to be a huge Santa. I want a huge Santa, you know? You know.

  Matt Slayer They tell me that's already you.

  No, no, I never fuck Santa.

  Matt Slayer Producers, you're fucking up here.

  Matt Slayer It's. This was a couple of months away. You can still release if you're.

  Busy, right? It's a very niche group of people that would want to purchase a video like that.

  Matt Slayer I don't even want to fess up to it. I purchased it for the pure novelty of it.

  Really? I've thought about doing a couple of things like that. I'm just like, they're not even, like, really sexual. I mean, I guess fucking Santa is sexual, but like, there's a couple other things. I was like, that would just be a fun video to do.

  Matt Slayer Why are you doing it?

  Blake Blossom Well, sometimes it's.

  Like mildly degrading. But I sometimes I find it funny, but I'm very I tiptoe around the degrading stuff because I don't like being degraded. So I want to make sure that that person really does enjoy it. And it's not something that's going to come and bite me in my ass later.

  Matt Slayer It's acting.

  Blake Blossom Is.

  Matt Slayer It is.

  There's a couple of times when I catch myself in and like when the scenes when I'm like, I just I just did a VR scene with Sky Blue and Destiny Cruise for Sex, like, really? And we're three mean girls God damn. I was pulling out the fucking zingers for that shit because we could say fucking anything, you know?

  We were like, Oh, you can't get a hard fries. We'll make that change.

  Blake Blossom Is that OK?

  Because we're shooting in VR, so you have to, like, have the, you know, like, make sure that it's OK. We were like, he was like the home monitor, and he caught us and sent us to detention. So we were like, Yeah, you're not going to be a little fucking loser ass home monitor anymore. Oh, yeah. We're sucking hol monitor deck.

  Really? That's how we're going to spend our fucking Thursday afternoon. Really? You know, like, but I mean, I don't really remember a lot of.

  Blake Blossom The stuff I said during it, but it just.

  Kind of comes out naturally. But the mean scenes are really fun. Like, I did another one for Touch. My wife and I was just like, Yeah, can't even get your deck up for me, you know, because they like, I'm really, they like I'm really aggressive.

  Matt Slayer It's acting it's OK.

  I guess. It's acting.

  Matt Slayer It's improv.

  Improv. I would say improv.

  Matt Slayer Improv is still acting.

  Blake Blossom Funny.

  To me. Like, I guess I think acting is different because, oh, sometimes I get a script and it's acting versus like, me just ad libbing it, whatever I say because it is me, but it's not it's me in like a different atmosphere as Blake.

  Matt Slayer You're playing a character at the end of the day, Blake is a character, right?

  Yeah. But I guess the real me does come out in those in those mean scenes, like, I really like I'm fucking I'm saying mean shit sometimes.

  Matt Slayer But there's nothing wrong with it. I mean, I'm sure with mainstream actors, there are aspects of their real personality that comes out in their performances. It's still fucking acting. It's not like you're going around and just being that heartless person to people. You interact with on a normal basis. You know, if you do, you messed up hold holding them for the 15 minutes before we got on there.

  Matt Slayer You were very charming before we even got on there.

  Blake Blossom So good I can take my mask off now.

  Matt Slayer I know how the times roll and you're committed to doing this podcast, Matt. Oh, we're going to talk some shit it's not.

  Blake Blossom Talking shit if it's true.

  Retelling stories is not gossip.

  Matt Slayer Sure, sure. I believe you. I believe you.

  Blake Blossom Put a little sparkle on me.

  Matt Slayer We need to we need to backtrack a little bit, though, because we did not get the story.

  I know. I told you, ADHD.

  Matt Slayer You move off the show tangents all the fucking time as the host of the show. It's my job to reel it back a little bit, and you'll be like, hey, like, how do you almost murder a man with your vagina?

  He was on set, and he was, you know, he's.

  Blake Blossom Older, and I was just like.

  I don't know. I'll do it if you put me on the box cover and I'm on the box cover and I'm like, damn good. And then cheerleading costume.

  Blake Blossom But it was.

  It was interesting. It's always very weird because, like, you have to have like a little bit of chemistry at least I have do I have to have like I have to find like one thing about you, like a little hot, you know, even if it's just how your dick has the back of my throat, you know, like, that's the one.

  Blake Blossom Thing.

  Matt Slayer Is it a little late at that point?

  Blake Blossom If it's true.

  Matt Slayer In that little, little.

  Blake Blossom Timeline, doesn't matter right? The timeline doesn't matter.

  Matt Slayer But you like chronological order. Well, it's just like, oh, hey, boneless penis. Sorry. Hitting the back of my throat. I guess I'm into him now. You know.

  Blake Blossom Matt, you might just hit it right on the fucking head. We knew soundboard like, woohoo! Clap, clap, clap.

  Matt Slayer This morning. I got fucking sound effects on the ready. What the fuck? Fuck where the fuck you like?

  Blake Blossom But no, we OK? Well, we.

  Got through majority of the scene, right? And then it was really hot upstairs because you have to turn the air conditioning off sometimes because it's really loud, and you can the microphones pick it up.

  Matt Slayer I know nothing about.

  Blake Blossom As you turn off the air conditioning.

  Matt Slayer Oh, it was off before we started. Don't I make that mistake? Every once in a while.

  Blake Blossom I. Oh, it took that long to turn off.

  Matt Slayer No, no. Every once in a while, I just fucking forget because one man show him everyone's all like, oh, fuck, you see?

  Oh, my God. Right? And then you're like, I'll fix it in.

  Blake Blossom Post I'll fix it.

  Matt Slayer I'm positive for the perk of being a one man show. It's like, well, I'm just fixing that in post. Fuck. But as our ADHD is just going over.

  Blake Blossom Yeah, he just, like, pulled it he just. He just pulled out a little orange bottle of.

  Pills and and took one.

  Blake Blossom Or two. I don't know for sure. And then and then he said.

  Matt Slayer He didn't tell you to spit it into his mouth.

  Blake Blossom Oh, God, no.

  Matt Slayer Oh, no.

  Blake Blossom If I might be a porn star. But I'm.

  I'm very vanilla when it comes to.

  Matt Slayer Oh, no. If I was had a cardiac arrest and if I was having cardiac arrest onset, I spit this pill into my mouth. Girl, the beat.

  Blake Blossom Maybe.

  Matt Slayer The beats. Yeah. So that is amazing.

  Blake Blossom Oh, my God. Can you am I like you just look over and you're like, girl, did you spit in his mouth? Oh, yeah.

  Matt Slayer I was so there's no way he could swallow them.

  Blake Blossom What do you mean?

  Blake Blossom Oh, no, I'm stuck. What do you mean, you're stuck?

  I can't.

  Blake Blossom Move.

  Matt Slayer Oh, my God. I just had a whole vision of, like, yeah, yeah. Girls with older performers and, like, the spelling Viagra, isn't it? I'll just go to the.

  Blake Blossom Oh, my God.

  It's going to be like, so what are your dos and don'ts? Also, let me know. Do you have a pacemaker? Do I have anything that I need to worry.

  Blake Blossom About cardiac wise? What's your cardiac health like?

  Matt Slayer Can I talk to your doctor? Before we do this, I need to make sure you're healthy enough to have sex.

  But but the interesting about that situation there is it actually was a really good scene. Like, I.

  Blake Blossom Actually was like, oh, shit, he can fuck dead.

  Man. And so I enjoyed it. It was a great scene, and I but it was just that one funny moment of like, ha ha. Like, we were joking about it. And then I was like.

  Matt Slayer Oh, so what did you decide was hot about him? Besides that, you almost killed him.

  Blake Blossom I don't know.

  Matt Slayer He's like, it was there for a moment.

  I don't know. It's I'm. I feel like the more I do porn, Matt, the more quick I am to, like like someone and then, like, not like them. It's very fleeting. No, I'm serious. It's because, like, I don't know if I have if I'm just a very jealous person or I have, like, anxious attachment style, but, like, as soon as I get to know someone and they, like, do something, like, maybe they cancel plans on me, or maybe I see them like I.

  Blake Blossom Was someone else and, like, I don't like them at all anymore.

  And then maybe, like, a week later, Hany, we go out to dinner, we have a nice dinner, and I like them again. What does that mean?

  Blake Blossom Can someone can someone tell me what that means?

  Matt Slayer Yeah, that's just above my pay grade. Happy? Like we barely know each other. You don't call me. I'm so sorry. No need for you to get jealous of anything I do. I don't know. I don't know. Know where I live now, so.

  Blake Blossom I do.

  Matt Slayer Shit that.

  Blake Blossom Oh, my God. Yeah. You don't know anything about me. You didn't even see my I.D..

  Matt Slayer Yeah. Nothing sexual happened.

  Blake Blossom How do you even know I'm black bottom?

  Matt Slayer Well, I I honestly doubt folks like this could be the most epic troll in the history. And if that is the case, there is a publicist I have to reach out to and be like, bravo, sir. Well played.

  Blake Blossom What the fuck? No, no. Who did you send over here? Oh, no.

  Matt Slayer There wouldn't be. What the fuck would be like? Well played. Well, fucking played like. I appreciate a good trolling. Like.

  That would be so funny, though. If I find someone who, like, kind of looks like me and it's like a doppelganger scene. And they're like, Oh, you're not Blake. Oh, my God. Yes.

  Matt Slayer Well, for the scene, they got to see it so well.

  Blake Blossom Yeah.

  Matt Slayer But for publicity or red carpet, you could have someone walk up to you on red carpet for you.

  Blake Blossom I don't know if I would want someone to watch out.

  For me, but.

  Matt Slayer I would.

  Be cool if there was two of.

  Blake Blossom Us.

  That would trip some people the.

  Blake Blossom Fuck out.

  That would be so crazy. Oh, my God. Anyone? Anyone let me know you look like me.

  Matt Slayer Well, it'd be really funny. It's like you have her walk as you, and then you're there bribing her assistant.

  Oh, my God. Holding her fucking dress and bag, and I'm like.

  Blake Blossom Oh, hey, Mike, that would. That's so good, though. That's so good.

  Matt Slayer I mean, it doesn't stand out. Like, think about that. Just that'd be hilarious. So she's like four because some of those photographers definitely know, you know, you. So wait, what? What's happening?

  Blake Blossom Oh, my God.

  We might have discovered a new.

  Blake Blossom Troll to just fucking send our fucking.

  Matt Slayer Well, fucking what?

  Blake Blossom My stunt double.

  Matt Slayer Hannibal fucking Burke sent someone else as him to the Spider-Man homecoming fucking premiere and to walk the carpet and, like, attend the premiere.

  Blake Blossom No, way. Yeah. Wow. What was the reason?

  Matt Slayer It didn't feel like an.

  Interesting, you know, when have you seen pictures of Kim Kardashian where she wears, like, those, like, really tight outfits that are just, like, all one color?

  Matt Slayer I mean, pretty much everything she wears, right?

  Exactly. So I think it was for Balenciaga, but she was wearing it was it was her but she was fully covered and like black cloth, it was very like shrink wrap to her. And I was I was like, what if that's not even her? What if it's not even her because.

  Matt Slayer Of the honor?

  No. It was like you could see the videos, but it's like if you're fully clothed and you look like a walking shadow, you know, all I think like what they were saying is like the metaphor of it was that you don't even need to see her face. It's just her shape. And I was like, oh, that's really interesting.

  Matt Slayer Millions of dollars of plastic surgery walking down a red carpet.

  I know now they're all reversing it.

  Matt Slayer It's wildlife. You made your career on this shit.

  Yeah. And then you see the trends trickling down, and then you see girls my age that are like getting bills. Honestly, I fucking wish I had one.

  Blake Blossom But I don't think I could.

  Do the recovery process for.

  Matt Slayer It. I don't even know what goes into the recovery on it.

  Well, they do, like, pretty intense liposuction all over you, so you have, like, little marks from liposuction all over you. And when they take the fat, they can't use 100% of the fat. So it depends on, like, what type of method they go in.

  Matt Slayer I mean, some of it becomes soap, duh.

  Blake Blossom Oh, my God.

  I love that movie. That movie. I thought I was really freaked out when like at the end and they were like, he wasn't there.

  Blake Blossom I was like, this is a mind fuck. Oh, my God. Yeah, we're not making stuff of evil.

  Matt Slayer I'm glad you got that reference. I'm super glad you got that reference.

  Blake Blossom I hope someone has someone don't have porn parody of that.

  Matt Slayer Oh, I'm sure one there has to the movies 20 years old.

  Maybe I'd like to see who what.

  Blake Blossom The performers are.

  Are you Googling.

  Matt Slayer It? Yeah, but continue with the.

  Blake Blossom I forgot what I was talking.

  Matt Slayer Oh, no, we're talking a compression. Get in there. Well, the cardassians getting there. Plus there's a new oh from Brazil.

  Blake Blossom So.

  It depends on how they going get it in there. So sometimes they can take 60% of the fat. Sometimes it's all the way down to like 25, 30%. But if you think about the volume of fat that you have to have taken out, you know, if you're losing between, you know, 50 to 70% of what you're taking out, it's like how much weight do you initially have to start with to get your ideal and figure.

  And there's so many, it's like the number one death rate surgery right now. And you know what's very interesting is so I, I'm very candid about like I don't ever promote myself as natural. Like my boobs are natural, like my body is natural. Granted, do I love cool sculpting? Yes, I will admit to sculpting, but I love getting fillers.

  I mean getting fillers and Botox in my face for five years. And when everything came about the sickness, I don't know if.

  Blake Blossom Were allowed to say it covered.

  Matt Slayer Oh, my.

  Blake Blossom God. Sometimes, sometimes.

  They like flag. If you say covered.

  Matt Slayer Like for fucking what.

  They like misinformation. OK, this is not fucking misinformation. Do not flag the CDC fucking do not.

  Matt Slayer At the end of the day, this is a comedy show, please. Well, not to.

  Worry, I'm about to say is based on like stuff that I saw online that there were multiple women, including women that were going to the same injecting place that I was going to that after they received the vaccine were having problems with the filler in their face that the vaccine was going and attacking those, you know, added, added things into your body, the foreign objects, those foreign molecules and it was causing the filler to turn into rock.

  And you can't take that out of your face. It's not like in lip injections where it's it's more of like a hyaluronic acid base, but they have like an antidote that they can put in there that dissolves it. So that's how people can kind of get away with big going really big and then, you know, you can have so many problems with it.

  Like I remember I used to wear my lips way, way, way bigger and I would get these like balled up things like underneath my lip. And my lips were so big at one point, you couldn't even see my teeth when I talked literally. And but but think about.

  Matt Slayer It, going back to those photos, be like, why did I do this?

  No, I fucking loved it.

  Matt Slayer Why did you.

  Stop fucking loved it?

  Blake Blossom Well.

  It's very painful. So I don't know if I've talked about this, but I will talk about it. So I got a rhinoplasty last April and it takes a really long time to heal. So it was like kind of before Christmas and I, it was a couple days before Christmas and I went to look at my lips then again and I was like more like eight months post-op of my rhinoplasty.

  So like it takes a long time for all.

  Matt Slayer What did the old nose look like?

  Fucking crooked like. I don't know how people don't see it. I have absolutely no idea. It's not like I did that much. And of course I want another one. You know, it's like a.

  Blake Blossom Michael Jackson over there.

  Matt Slayer Stopped it, stopped it on children.

  But no, it's just like when you get into that fucking cycle of you know, when you get into that cycle of like constantly changing yourself, like, you get fucking used to it and you get addicted to it and like, you.

  Matt Slayer Feel you have body in this more feel oh.

  Extremely. But I had that like way before, probably when I was like ten or 11 because when I did competitive dance when I was little, I was, I was always like kind of taller and a little bit bigger.

  Blake Blossom Like I'm not a pretty bitch. Like I'm not.

  Over here like five, three £90. Like I'm not, you know, a spinner. So I'm like a bigger girl. So I was always like bigger compared to the other girls. And I think that's where that started.

  Matt Slayer I'm just going to put a big, big fucking cow as being in the same rooms, but not a big girl.

  Matt Slayer Just putting that out there.

  There you go.

  Blake Blossom And there's your body. Just right fog in there.

  Matt Slayer Definitely not a big girl.

  Blake Blossom No, but it's I'm.

  Very aware about how I am and how I view myself. And I know that I have a fuck ton of, you know, self esteem building to do. And you have to be very aware being in this industry because.

  Blake Blossom A lot of people go online and say this, you know, this girl is like and her.

  Stomach rolls and her acne so bad, you want to believe the bullshit that I've gotten about my acne.

  Blake Blossom I, I want to see your face. Have you ever tried this bitch?

  I've tried fucking everything ok? I'm a 22 year old. A young woman who wears makeup sometimes multiple times a day. Yes. I wash my face. I spend thousands of dollars on lasers. And fucking chemicals to try and fix that. OK, that's how deep this shit has, like, really gotten in my life, because now we're adding another layer to it.

  I'm on camera all the time. I got my lips done when I was in high school. Matt, I was a senior, and I got my fucking lips done.

  Matt Slayer That is why I.

  Didn't tell my mom fucking spent $180, got a fucking strange UVA and I loved it. And I've been hooked ever since.

  Blake Blossom Well, the problem.

  Matt Slayer What doctor was just like, Oh, high school student, this.

  Is my friends. Mom was a fucking nurse, but she was, she's, she has a lot done to herself and, and she projected a little bit on to her daughter and would say like, oh, you know, like I can't wait for my daughter to, you know, like, do this too.

  Matt Slayer That is fucking wild.

  No. Scottsdale, Arizona, man. Like, we're crazy out there, but it compounds. So it's like, if I'm already experiencing that as a child, and then we get and then we see, like, Kylie Jenner and Kim K, you know, with all this plastic surgery, and I grew up with Instagram, right? So it's like that's what I've grown up with. That's all I know is that, oh, if you have money grow, you can change your face, you can change, you can buy or titties.

  You can buy yourself a ass. You can buy yourself. There's plenty of guys that I know that have chest implants, calf implants, fucking penis enlargements, penis pumps. So it's like when you grow up in there in this era of like you can change yourself so much. Think about what it does to these us fucking young girls on camera.

  Matt Slayer Oh, no, no, no.

  When you're finally, like, six months in, you have, you know, 20, 30 racks sitting in your fucking account and you're like, I'm going to go get my lips done. My friend has her done. I saw this girl on set. She had, you know, all this shit done.

  Matt Slayer I totally fucking good. Hell, Facebook came out not too long ago about. Oh, yeah, they had internal memos being like, Yeah, we know Instagram is negatively affecting the self-esteem of women.

  Blake Blossom It's the filters.

  It's the filters. And I think there's in the state of Texas, I don't think you can do face filters on Tick-Tock.

  Matt Slayer No, you can't well, it's the filters. It's also it's social media is curated life. No one really has the expertize to explain that to their children because I'm assuming your parents are probably a little older than me. Mm hmm. Well, yeah.

  Blake Blossom My parents are older.

  Matt Slayer I hope so. Like, because if.

  Yeah, my mom's 31 years older than me.

  Matt Slayer OK, so they're they're a little, you know, your mom ten years old, at that or somewhere around there. I'm, I've been doing math. It's hard. But the point is, we are of a generation where social media was a thing as once we were adults from the most part. Mm hmm. So the navigation of it isn't as prevalent unless you're doing stuff like what I do for a living is like if you're an adult in Hollywood who does content creation for a living.

  Matt Slayer Yeah, you're up on social media. But if you're just like, I have a normal nine to five job, why the fuck would I be up on this raise? How are you supposed to, like, navigate with your children who are inundated with this shit?

  And now it's different with tick tock because everyone's making Tic-Tacs. Everyone can be a tick tock star. But yeah, it's very interesting because it's like, if you like, I was already depressed as fuck before I got into porn. Right? So it's like when people try to say.

  Matt Slayer This is probably not the best place for you.

  That's what people say. And they fucking try and think, Oh, I'm playing me, me son depressed. I mean, we have an eating disorder and it's like, Were you having that before?

  Blake Blossom Right. Well, what.

  Was the timeline? Because if you're already doing that before you created this persona, I mean, they can exacerbate it and make it, like, really fucking bad.

  Matt Slayer 100%. It can fuck.

  Any, any, anything that, you know, if you have alcohol problem, if you have a drug problem, like you have to know like grow, you need to fucking work, you're in your prime bitch.

  Matt Slayer So people are like self awareness.

  Completely or they choose to button.

  Blake Blossom I give a fuck. They're like, ooh, I don't care. I fuck anyone with $2,000 and you know, I shot our girl and you'll earn you learn.

  Matt Slayer Or not.

  Blake Blossom Hopefully.

  Matt Slayer Hopefully all the same fucking tragedy story. And those happened.

  I don't care about being mean. My friends say they're doing some dumb shit a big the fuck are you doing that for? Why are you? Oh, you don't know how to. Oh well I'm not making money on my only fans OK you want to collab.

  Blake Blossom Ok.

  We'll find other ways I mean as much as I don't I don't hook so I've only ever squirted one time and you know you got to try it once. I had to see what the all the fun was about. I didn't find it very fulfilling. I found it very boring actually.

  Matt Slayer Can you tell the class the whole story can you open the can of worms already?

  The thing about it is.

  Blake Blossom I.

  Have. I say no to everything first. Like I've never had a sugar daddy. I don't care. I'd be a horrible sugar baby. I don't fucking talk to you. Direct deposit. We don't need to meet up to get the check. You know.

  Matt Slayer Some days my be super into that.

  I yeah. I don't know.

  Matt Slayer I'm not into it. Don't it's just.

  Not my thing. I don't find joy and like doing that. So for me it's like, why would I hook like I'd rather be on a camera so I like I like I like I like a crowd man. You know, I it's just not my thing.

  Matt Slayer I've thought about getting into feature dancing.

  Blake Blossom A little bit. A little bit.

  That's funny that you bring that up.

  Matt Slayer Well, you just mentioned you want to be in front of a crowd. That is the number one fast track to being in front of a crowd.

  I mean, I there'll be more people in a cam show, but it's not a real crowd. But yeah, I like the performance aspect of it, but. Well, no, so it was no, you know.

  Blake Blossom It was chill.

  It wasn't that weird. I just like nothing bad happened to me. Like I made my money and I, I was chillin.

  Matt Slayer So, like, what?

  But you know what?

  Matt Slayer I used it up. It was like a fucking fancy restaurant, like.

  It was in Vegas. I mean, a normal hotel that I stay at all the time. Like I was. I can just get a room there like buy me a room and pay me, like, and then we can go out to dinner, and I'm super chill and, like, nice. Like, I'm not here to, like, be anything other than, you know, what I'm here for.

  You know, like, I'm not an.

  Blake Blossom Extra.

  Person that just loves to fuck in the theatrics. Granted, do I love theatrics? Yes, but it's not a prevalent thing that's always with me. And I just was like, you know what? I can't. I can't shit on it if I haven't done it. You know, like, why would you take advice from someone? Like, for example, if someone's in AA, like, why would you want someone that's never tasted alcohol, ever like that doesn't make sense, right?

  Like, you would want someone who has experience that, right?

  Matt Slayer Yeah.

  No, but you want it. I feel like when you have that common bond with someone, when they've been through the same experience with you, you can get an understanding of what it's like to actually be there in that moment. And it's like, I can't just be sitting over here being like, That's fucked up.

  Blake Blossom And that's.

  Matt Slayer Why would you do that if.

  I didn't do it already? So it's like, OK, I'll fucking do my toes in the water, bitch.

  Blake Blossom I'll fucking get on your shoulder. You think I'm not hardcore enough?

  I'll try it, you know?

  Matt Slayer Where do you take you for dinner.

  Blake Blossom And at some restaurant at the hotel?

  Matt Slayer Well, I didn't even tell you how the hotel went, so that's bullshit. There's some fine dining in fucking Vegas.

  Yeah, and. And the thing about that is, like, I went into it just being like I grew up around very, very judgmental people. I grew up in a very prevalent LDS community of four Mormons. So it's very judgmental, like when you're growing up around there because.

  Matt Slayer You are magic underwear.

  I don't. But I've seen a couple of boys.

  Blake Blossom I've taken a couple of them off Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry.

  Matt Slayer Completely complete side note. Complete side note. But this is the first podcast post vasectomy for anyone who's paying attention at home. My doctor, his primary practice is in Utah. And when we did the procedure gave me fuckin underwear to wear. That was like tighter than the underwear I was wearing. It took everything in my power while he was working on me.

  Matt Slayer Not to make a magic underwear joke every day on this guy.

  I believe that shit when I was a kid, though, because they told us they would tell us stories about how it protected people. And I was like, I fully believed it, but now I'm like a total nonbeliever, like, at all. Don't. I'm totally atheist. I don't believe in.

  Matt Slayer Anything.

  Except pure science.

  Matt Slayer Sorry, that was the most terrifying. Most unenthusiastic it is.

  Blake Blossom I have some morals but I'm not, like, religious at all.

  Matt Slayer Honestly, in all reality, why would we have a moral set by people who didn't even shit in doors?

  I see. I'm so honored, uneducated about anything religion wise, I just shut up. I do it. I just. I don't want to hear it at all.

  Matt Slayer The Bible is written by people who don't do shit in doors. Like, that's that simple.

  That's a weird fact. That's a really weird fact. How do you know that? How. How do they know.

  Matt Slayer Because indoor plumbing wasn't invented. So like the fucking 1800s.

  Blake Blossom Oh, well.

  If you're thinking of it like that, I guess.

  Matt Slayer Yeah.

  I thought they were, like, making a choice.

  Matt Slayer Well, no, no, no. Not religiously, like. Yeah, we don't.

  Blake Blossom DONVAN Welcome to the Dunbar podcast with Blake Blossom, your host fork.

  Matt Slayer I just got replaced.

  But no, sorry.

  Matt Slayer All these.

  Years, but I was raised around a very a lot of judgmental people and had a lot of judgment placed on me as a kid. Like, so it definitely affects how I live my life now. Like, I have a very, very high sense of awareness about, like, if people don't like me or if I'm doing something wrong. And I think that kind of helps me steer through a lot of the bullshit that happens.

  But yeah, about the, the hooking or the escorting thing, whatever you want to call it, maybe it maybe we.

  Matt Slayer Just say the quiet part out loud and.

  Maybe, you know, maybe I'll get into it one day. I don't know. Right now, it's not for me. I don't find it fulfilling emotionally. I mean, I and that's the thing. It's like, what do I want to do stuff for? Do I want to do it because I emotionally want to do it and I truly want to be there and do it.

  And that's how I feel about being on every single porn site. I truly want to be there. I truly want to fuck, and I truly want to get that fucking scene where it's like, Am I just doing this for money? Am I just here, like, just battling all my inner demons and I just have to push through it, push through it for that fucking check.

  I'm not going to last another year if I'm going to live like that.

  Matt Slayer I mean, some people definitely do it out of fucking survival though, that they have to.

  And that's the thing that I'm so grateful for, that I have other avenues and the way that I position myself in the industry is I've been very, very careful that I don't have to resort to that and I will fuck in some. I'd rather sell panties all day, you know, I'd rather sell all my lingerie I'd rather sit on Cam for fuckin three days straight and make if I need ten grand, I'll, I'll fucking sit on camp till I make ten grand.

  To me, that's just what I want to do. And that's what so important about porn is you can fucking choose to do all this shit, you know.

  Blake Blossom You can choose to do. Oh, my God. I almost has to flip the table over.

  Matt Slayer Almost she definitely did. Hit the table is very passionate. Almost flip the table. I mean, like.

  Blake Blossom I know you can always tell.

  When I'm, like, getting animated and I'm getting really heated because I'm like. And I start like, freaking out and giving the anxiety going, giving.

  Blake Blossom I'm not drinking.

  Matt Slayer Oh, i.

  Blake Blossom You're cracking this egg open my.

  Matt Slayer Oh, I almost, I almost would pay to see what that would be like, but oh.

  Blake Blossom I had a couple of drinks last night, and I was like, Woo, girl, we got to stop. I'm starting this girl. Her outfit's ugly as fuck.

  Matt Slayer Oh. Oh, Jesus.

  Blake Blossom It was so bad, Matt. Like oh, girl, what are we talking about?

  Matt Slayer We were just talking about your escorting experience and how it wasn't for you.

  This was my thing. I'd rather be on set, and rather I'd rather have a scene come out to me. I'd rather have a way, like, you know, 12,000 scenes on my fucking record than 12,000 body count.

  Matt Slayer Do you have any mainstream ambition? Do you want to, like, get into, like, mainstream acting at some point or.

  Well, the interesting thing about.

  Blake Blossom That is.

  I like being myself a lot, and I like I like being my true self. And taking the certain parts of my personality, like the very sexual, like, little demon that, like, gets released. You know, I like doing that. I like the fun little creepy parts of my personality that I can pull out. But I feel like with a lot of the TV acting, if it's not comedy, I feel like I would be a little put off by.

  I don't think I'm good enough to do that. Yeah, maybe I need to take some acting classes and learn how to memorize some fucking script.

  Blake Blossom So my God.

  Matt Slayer You could tell your Megan fuck. It's Hollywood.

  Maybe, but also I think I've experienced a lot of, like, pretty girl privilege in my life where I get a lot of things just because of the way I look. And as.

  Blake Blossom I know you're going to fucking.

  Laugh, but, like, that's kind of why I chose porn, because I was like.

  Blake Blossom I think I look hot. I like having sex, you know?

  I think I would do better in this industry than trying to.

  Blake Blossom Bust my balls and.

  Be on a fucking TV show.

  Matt Slayer And be competing with a lot of other pretty girls who have had pretty girl problems their whole fucking lives.

  Blake Blossom Yeah, and it's.

  It's just where you want to take yourself. And what you're ok with and what you're not ok with. And I'm ok fucking people on camera. I think it's fun. I think it's funny. I think for the most part, everything about porn that I do specifically what I do, not just the whole fucking world of porn. And there's a lot of things that I don't agree with, but what I do is it's very curated to what I specifically want to do.

  Matt Slayer What don't you want to do? Like, what is, what is the besides the step stuff which we discussed, what is like, what do you consider life to be fucked up? Like, now that that's not for me.

  Blake Blossom I'm I'm.

  It gets into some weird.

  Blake Blossom Waters.

  When you start talking about like the violence towards women because damn, I love getting fucked hard. You know, like I love getting my hair pulled. I love getting choked.

  Matt Slayer Like, that's consensual.

  Well, I mean, every.

  Matt Slayer Deal any.

  Anything can be consensual. I mean, but it's it's to me is there's an there's a very important aspect about doing the very extreme porn. Like, I have friends that, you know, do scat play and piss and puke, and they're still going to be my friends. You know, I don't have to do it, but they're doing it oh, my God.

  I just started thinking.

  Blake Blossom About something else. Jesus Christ. I lost my train of thought. I started thinking about this other video. I oh, my God.

  Matt Slayer That's OK.

  Blake Blossom So what was I talking about? Obviously, I'm getting nervous now.

  Matt Slayer So nervous about what I do. What a.

  Nothing.

  Matt Slayer Well, why are you being nervous? It's OK.

  I started thinking about my friends that are doing that, and I.

  Matt Slayer I just well, at the end of the day, you know, as long as your friends are hurting anyone, why would. Oh.

  I know what point I was trying to make is the violence towards women. So what you see on Twitter you know, like, Twitter is a very I said of the market, you know, you put anything on there, I've seen people, you know, horrible terrorist shit from, like, overseas, you know, like, really very, very graphic things. And and that's one of the biggest debates about like, oh, porn is glorifying abuse against women.

  There are some aspects.

  Blake Blossom That are there.

  Are there's some certain websites. And I feel like the websites are going away and they're shifting towards the times where they're, they're, they're realizing like this is not fucking cool anymore. Where I was cool maybe like five, six, seven years ago, where now it's like, you better fucking follow everything that's on her. Yes and no list or there's going to be some serious lawsuits.

  But recently there's been a lot of people that post videos of just like slapping, punching yeah. Just, just very like physical violence, no titties out, no pussies out, no on second deck. There's not a vibrator strapped there's no room. And if you think of like the art of Kink.com, right? Like they are pleasuring you the entire time, even though it's looks so hardcore.

  And it sounds crazy there. They fucking love it. I've had so many friends you for kink and they're like, Oh my God, I want to do that like every other week, you know, like, I just want to get it in but then you see the stuff that's like, my friend just got slapped in the next fucking month. How is that porn and that gets in the mix with, you know, like, people talking dick and you see a video of someone sucking dick and then someone.

  Blake Blossom Fucking and then doggy and then, oh, damn, that girl can.

  Squirt like crazy. Whoa. And then you see videos of people getting slapped, and it's like, that's all considered porn.

  Blake Blossom So that's where I have.

  The kind of like, yeah, I do my type of porn, I do Blake planning.

  Blake Blossom And I just don't do anything.

  But, yeah, the violent stuff is really hard. To have a gauge, because there are times when I just want to, like, fucking let loose, and and sometimes I do want people to hurt me. I do.

  Matt Slayer There's nothing wrong with that. Like, no one should shame you on that shit, if that's what you fucking want.

  Blake Blossom Well, then I can't shame my friends because I'm like, bitch, why'd you do that? I know.

  She's like, because I want to. I like getting marked up. I like it, and it's. I just haven't been explained to enough. I think I'm a little. I was a little uneducated about it, but now that I'm, like, progressing into, like, OK, like, now we're going to have sex with multiple guys. Now we're going to be doing anal and, and, you know, the more aggressive things.

  And I always think like, oh, my God, I like, are my friends watching this thinking that I'm getting hurt or is someone watching this and thinking that this is fucking real? Like, there's a couple of websites that I really want to shoot for because I know that my personality in the way that I do blowjobs and, you know, the way that I can get to that hardcore level, it would fucking be great because that's the time and place to fucking do.

  Blake Blossom It, right.

  But I always get very hesitant because I'm always so worried about that, that looming, you know, judge, judge, judge, over here, I'm watching you. I'm going to judge you for everything you're doing. And so I think that's why I've been like very tiptoeing about what I've been doing the last two years.

  Matt Slayer You're already dammed in the grass to condemn me, like fuck other people's judgment.

  You're still you say that and it's just like an easy thing to say, like, fuck what they think.

  Matt Slayer Well, but it's also one of those things like, I am much older than you. So it took I'm a 22. Oh, no, I was fucking hanging on the words of everybody fucking every fucking day matter and hell, even I'm 41 now. Even at 41 it takes some self-control sometimes to not try to fight people in the comments on fucking YouTube.

  Matt Slayer It's much easier said than done. Yeah, but it is so freeing once you try to practice it when you're just like fuck them that they don't fucking matter.

  That's what everyone says to me is stop reading the comments and I can't.

  Matt Slayer Oh no, no.

  It's a fucking addiction.

  Matt Slayer Go ahead and read the fucking comments, but realize why would you take their opinion if you wouldn't take their fucking advice? You don't know who the fuck this person is, you don't know what their fucking background is. You don't know what the fuck. This person may not be able to fucking string a sentence together. Why the fuck does their opinion matter?

  Exactly.

  Matt Slayer But it it takes time, practice and conscious effort to get to work. You don't have just the emotional responsibility. Thought that motherfucker. They're trying to fight me yeah.

  In more. So the comments don't really like anger me. It's more so that a lot of times they already touch on insecurities that I have. So it's like, God, stop pointing out the crack in the fucking glass, man. Like, just drink out of it. The fuck is wrong. With you. And that's what's so horrible about, you know, like, being a young woman and having money to, like, go ahead and change yourself.

  Like, I can have red hair tomorrow. I can go the fake test tomorrow. I could go buy an ass tomorrow.

  Matt Slayer I mean, I do, but that doesn't make you special.

  Let me know if you want any shoes. What size are you.

  Matt Slayer I would wager a lot of money went for.

  A bunch of makeup. I have a bunch of hair stuff.

  Matt Slayer Are we going to do a Metzler makeover week? I'm totally done with that. Bonus content. Oh, my God. Come on, folks.

  Blake Blossom I don't mind it if guys wear makeup.

  I used to be weird about it because I felt like I just didn't understand it.

  Matt Slayer You better not be worried about it if you're going to be doing my makeup.

  Well, we're doing it for fun. It's like people who choose to wear it, like, wear it. I because I grew up around, like, people who are so like, I wear, you know, like.

  Blake Blossom Bad, bad, bad. Hell, hell, hell.

  I wasn't even in it. I was just around it all the time. And but it's very interesting how everything that's happened to me up until I was 18, like, really shapes the last like four and a half years of my life since I've been over 18. It's, it's really interesting thing.

  Matt Slayer It's interesting to be scary. It's wild to be like, oh, my God, these people are fucking fallible humans who don't know shit either. It's like, Oh, all these people who, like, act like they know fucking everything, don't know shit at all. They don't that they don't have the life experiences do not everyone can experience fucking everything.

  I know, but the way that I view it is like what we're talking about, like, who's watching my porn, who's buying it? And I always want to, I keep my customers very, very in my, like in the back of my mind all the time. So I'm worried that if I shift from what I've been doing for the last two years, that it's going to be, you know, like, I'm not going to have any fans anymore.

  Like, if I got a tattoo. Oh, my fucking God, Matt. Oh, my.

  Blake Blossom God.

  That would be a problem for my fans. They would take your fucking purse.

  Matt Slayer Guess what? They might have to get over it. At the end of the day, it's your life. Do something for you.

  I don't know. I sometimes I like doing stuff for other people, but what am I? I mean, I'm a people pleaser.

  Matt Slayer Possibly, but if you do some for you, what's to say that you won't gain newer fans? More fans? Because just because the old fans fell off doesn't mean the new fans won't come droves. Oh, my God, that tattoo so fucking hot or whatever. But it's so fucking hot. As a redhead, who fucking knows if it's going to make you happy?

  Matt Slayer What stops you from experimenting with it? Because in most of those cases, you can go back.

  And that's something that I think about all the time about what I want to do moving forward because I don't. I'm two and a half years in.

  Matt Slayer Which is I.

  Already have I have three awards. Like, what else? What else can I fucking lost?

  Matt Slayer He's got three awards. Ooh, la la. Sorry.

  Yeah, because it's truly it's like this is this was like my end goal was to get awards. That was kind of like, OK, I'll get an award and then I'll be done. And now it's like, oh.

  Blake Blossom Oh, wow.

  Matt Slayer I fuck I'm useless.

  Blake Blossom That was, that was a little quick and and now.

  Like, what am I? Do you know? Because I was, I just had assumed that I'd take so much longer.

  Matt Slayer I mean, sometimes you.

  Get those.

  Matt Slayer Things. Sometimes it does. Sometimes it doesn't. Like, that's the fucking nature of the beast. Sometimes you can be grinding the shit out for five, six years. Never get any recognition. Sometimes you can be in it for fucking six months and be like, you are the hottest new thing on the fucking planet. It all depends on how the fans engage with you, how fucking people who do the booking marketing decide like, Oh shit, this is.

  Matt Slayer Yeah.

  But. But do you understand, like, why I'm so paranoid about every fucking thing? And I read every comment because if it's like one switch of opinion, I mean, I could be canceled. And that's what's also really horrible about social media.

  Matt Slayer I'm really sorry that you came on this of culture, that this is what's gonna.

  Cancel me, bitch.

  Blake Blossom I don't give a fuck. I'm only second on the internet. I can't get a corporate job you are.

  Matt Slayer Oh, my God. I had no idea when you're sucking dick.

  Blake Blossom Where what's the link source anyone on Reddit knows sausage like and. Oh, Reddit's.

  Really bad.

  Matt Slayer To read. So fucking worst.

  And oh, my God, Matt. In the beginning, I was so fucking aggressive with my fans, I was like, Go fuck yourself, you fucking fat loser pig. Like, you're sitting in your mom's fucking basement typing out your little credit card numbers into buying my porn oh.

  Matt Slayer Was that you projecting your own insecurity on them?

  Matt Slayer Oh, sorry, sorry, sorry. I don't know. I don't know. Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. What kind of questions you ask you that motherfucker? What?

  Blake Blossom Oh, my gosh.

  Matt Slayer Whoa, whoa.

  Blake Blossom Wouldn't that come down?

  Matt Slayer I could ask it real shit.

  Blake Blossom Fuck this. Oh, it says in I forgot what we were talking about.

  Matt Slayer Well, apparently we're coming back from my fucking camera shutting down because I decided that I had to ship live in 4K.

  And to have back the.

  Blake Blossom Camera I.

  Make.

  Matt Slayer Now that we've gotten her back down to regular HD so interview over. She's go flip the table. She's out, and it's just an Arizona. She may have, like, five guns on her.

  They call me.

  Blake Blossom Gunslinger with the big iron on my hip.

  Matt Slayer The fucking cowboy over here.

  Blake Blossom I love that song I.

  Just released a bunch of western stuff.

  Matt Slayer Are you in the country?

  No, but I like. I like. I grew up in Arizona, so I feel better when I'm, like, in dry heat.

  Blake Blossom I hate humidity. Just opens up my pores, you know.

  Matt Slayer You pause.

  Blake Blossom Oh, what? Pause No.

  Matt Slayer Why haven't you made the transition to fucking fully moving to L.A. or Vegas or.

  Blake Blossom Oh, my God.

  Hi. I'd like a venti pistachio latte. One extra pamper pistachio cream. I like a vanilla cold foam.

  Blake Blossom Float and a.

  Cinnamon drizzle.

  Matt Slayer Like, stop. You're turning me on. That's so hot that.

  I'm really sorry. I just have a question. Is your salmon farm raised or wild card?

  I'm pretty much already living in l.a. Can you tell me? Yeah, you just hop onto the four or five get on to the winner. Oh, my god. You love.

  Blake Blossom You just have one of the four of five. You just get on the winner one. Just get offers. The poveda held up one death.

  Matt Slayer I didn't realize I was just about to unleash, like, all the angelino bits that were.

  Blake Blossom Why i love Saturday night white.

  Matt Slayer Jesus christ. Wow.

  See, it's so like when we're talking about, like, stuff I would want to do. I would want to do fucking saturday night live.

  Matt Slayer Why don't you?

  Blake Blossom Oh, my God. I'd probably fuck everyone else.

  Matt Slayer Well, that's one way to make it, honestly.

  Blake Blossom Oh, hey. Oh.

  But I really like the old Bill Bill Hader stuff. I loved his Stefon stuff. The the New York club behind a dumpster next to five rats wearing party hats.

  Blake Blossom It's called.

  Birthday.

  Blake Blossom Cake.

  Blake Blossom But I love it. He was always the best.

  And do you like Jimmy Fallon?

  Matt Slayer Mm. Thousandeight.

  Blake Blossom You know what's funny? He's always like, ha. Yeah, that's crazy.

  Man. You know, he's always, like, doing, like, that super fake laugh. But if you watch his.

  Blake Blossom SNL stuff, he's so good. He's, like, one of the best ones on there beside Will Ferrell.

  Matt Slayer That is whole other fucking seasons there. That's more. That's like a decade apart from each other.

  Fuck. Well, I guess I like watching a lot of the compilations and the holiday ones are always really big.

  Blake Blossom So.

  But they're yeah, like, it would be so fun if I like, did some type of like comedy sketch with like.

  Matt Slayer What.

  Blake Blossom Sammy Poehler.

  Or like Rachel Dratch?

  Matt Slayer Well, I mean, oh my god. Not with necessarily them, but what's stopping you from just doing comedy sketches on your own?

  Well, there's a couple things of like, ideas, and I wanted to do that. Are more like satire, and they're kind of like making fun of stuff in porn.

  Matt Slayer And what's stopping you from doing it?

  Blake Blossom Judgment of other people oh, I just get so scared. I don't know why. I know, right? I get so scared to be like doing comedy.

  Matt Slayer And my God, I'm going to try to do something funny. Hey, this is what.

  Blake Blossom I'd rather put my tits out.

  Matt Slayer People can identify my butthole from the moon. Make probably.

  Blake Blossom Good.

  Matt Slayer Butthole. Heaven forbid you do something that makes people fucking laugh. I hate to break it to you. Like I've been on air with you for about a half hour and a half. It is when you're fucking funny.

  Blake Blossom You think? Yeah.

  Matt Slayer The whole point where you were like, I don't want to do this. I'm like, You sure be fucking podcasting is honestly what you should be doing.

  Maybe.

  Matt Slayer Maybe I don't say that to fucking everybody. Like, I'm not. I'm not just saying that to say that. Like, I don't say that if fucking.

  I think I.

  Blake Blossom Would, I think I would get a.

  I think I would really like it if I could provoke.

  Blake Blossom Someone.

  Matt Slayer Into what?

  Like getting someone and I would like know some shit about them.

  Blake Blossom And I saw what's going on with Mr..

  So-and-so, you know, like where it's like that real life, like, bitch. Oh, my God, this guy, you know, it's like, really friend of friends, but I feel like you can't put a lot of that stuff on podcast because we're namedropping you know, we're talking about.

  Matt Slayer Well, see, that's, that's the art of podcast storytelling is tell the story, but don't name names, just tell us.

  Blake Blossom But it's funnier with the names sometime because you're like, Oh my God, it.

  Matt Slayer Is the parties involved. But at the end of the day, for the audience, unless they specifically know who that person is, like saying just about anything son matters because people know who just about painting is. But if you're like, I fuck this rock star son, it almost has the same impact. Mm hmm. It's the situation. That's the funny part.

  Matt Slayer Not necessarily the parties involved. Unless that party is someone the audience can fucking relate to.

  Blake Blossom Yeah.

  Maybe I would do a podcast. I would need a.

  Blake Blossom Manager to help me because I'm all over the fucking place.

  Matt Slayer Don't also you don't fucking say.

  I used to have an assistant.

  Matt Slayer There buried in the desert somewhere. What happened?

  Blake Blossom I used to have an assistant.

  That would be. Let me write that down. That's actually a really good idea for something.

  Matt Slayer Once again, recording.

  That's okay. Let me.

  Matt Slayer I yeah, I watch this again.

  Blake Blossom I have some funny stuff in my.

  In my notes. Fuck. What did I just say? I totally forgot.

  Matt Slayer About an assistant that you murdered. Oh.

  Blake Blossom I used to I was just.

  Like, you know, those writing prompts that you would do, like, for creative writing, and it would be like.

  Matt Slayer No, I'm illiterate.

  Well, you know, you know how they would do that? They would give you a prompt, and then you'd have to come up with the story. I always really liked those ones, but I. Yeah, about comedy in general. I think me, I'm a funny person.

  Blake Blossom But I.

  Don't think that everyone would like my comedy.

  Matt Slayer Who cares? At the end of the day.

  Blake Blossom I guess that's the point, right?

  Matt Slayer Good for you.

  I guess so. In my head. I guess so. My head. And, you know, I feel like because I kind of live is like two people. There's like the side of me is Blake. That's like, fuck, yeah, I'm going to do crazy shit. I'm going to get famous and. Yeah, yeah. And then there's like.

  Blake Blossom Me, it's me. And I'm like, girl, would you be doing this if you weren't motivated by money?

  Matt Slayer Would I want to be doing most things? If they weren't motivated by money, do people fucking pick up other people's trash if they weren't motivated by money? There's nothing wrong with being motivated by fucking money.

  Well, I try to not have every aspect be like.

  Matt Slayer That's all I do. Dumb is fancy pants. I'm financially stable. I don't have to motivate everything by money.

  Blake Blossom I did tell you I was having problems with IRS earlier.

  Matt Slayer So things should be more about money. You got to pay that fucking bill.

  Blake Blossom I did pay. They said I didn't. That's what I'm dealing with.

  Matt Slayer Well, you don't have a receipt of payment.

  So that's what that's what is very interesting is that I did the direct pay on April 18th at like 12 in the afternoon, got my confirmation code from the government and I get a letter and it says You did not pay, and then you owe another like two, $3,000 on top of it for an interest. And I was like, Whoa, OK, well this just got real.

  And, but imagine if I didn't pay my taxes for like three years.

  Matt Slayer Oh, I know some performers that happened to because that is the sad part about pornography. There is no one being like, Hey, all this massive money, it's in your old girl who is probably never.

  Blake Blossom Maybe you should save it.

  Matt Slayer Right? Probably to buy that fucking Mercedes. Why?

  And that's why I was telling you is that I even though that I like to live this grandiose.

  Blake Blossom Lifestyle.

  And go to L.A. and buy Balenciaga and go to Vegas and fuck guys for money, it's like one.

  Matt Slayer Time just to.

  Blake Blossom One time.

  But at least I'm honest about it. You know, I could lie and pretend that, you know, I would never do that and.

  Matt Slayer Well, and that is such a wild thing to me, not that you escort him. So when I first got into the industry, there's a lot of people that are escorting. It's still as old as fucking time. Yeah, but it was so fucking dope frowned upon people. People would not admit to their friends that the restaurant and that's been a wild change in the industry in my time, in the fact that, like, people are much more open about it.

  Matt Slayer Like.

  Do they put it as their Twitter name touring in New York.

  Matt Slayer Right.

  July 3rd through July 27th.

  Blake Blossom Email me, fill out my Google Forms document.

  Matt Slayer Right but seriously, when I got in ten years ago, people would not even tell their close, like real life close friends that the both of them would be escorting and they wouldn't tell each other because there was such shame attached to it.

  Now they're like, Girl, we got.

  Blake Blossom A thing on Friday at 8:00. Come with.

  Matt Slayer Me. Oh, no, no. Now there's like whole fucking support groups I like.

  Yeah. And I, and I'm kind of glad it's changing because I know it makes it safer and that's my, that's like, my main concern is like that, that they're not being safe, but, but the main thing that really triggers me about people who ask for it is that.

  Blake Blossom A.

  Are you really requiring everyone to test or are you just using condoms? Because guess what? If if so, if I test every 14 days, right? I say I'm working every single day of those 14 weeks. OK, day one, I get fucked someone who just fucked 20 people that weekend and get an STD. Well, guess what, 13, 12, 11, eight goes down the line and it just spreads and now it's like, now I'm spreading this to 13 other people and then I have to go and make the phone call.

  Hey, this is Blake. I just wanted to have a conversation with you, but guess what? I'm the type of person that's going to fucking call you and say, Hey.

  Blake Blossom I popped.

  I got a dirty test, man, because at the end of the day, why, if it was really serious.

  Blake Blossom I would want someone to call me.

  I would want someone to call me and be like, Hey, I don't know what happened. You don't have to tell me what the fuck you're doing. You know? I don't know what happened, girl.

  Matt Slayer We'll have sex lives off camera.

  Yeah. And, you know, it's really sad. I've had friends that are like, dude, I like. How do you deal with STDs? My boyfriend cheated on me, and I got an STD. Like, how do you deal with it? And I'm like, Holy shit, I don't even know what I would do. If I had a boyfriend and I got chlamydia from a boyfriend, you know, like, how would you feel about that rather than getting chlamydia from someone on set?

  Matt Slayer I mean, it depends on the situation. Like, I definitely documented for my civilian partner a couple of years back.

  Because of cheating?

  Matt Slayer No, because it was an open thing. So it was just like, I don't.

  I don't I'm not very educated.

  Blake Blossom On open relationships. It's very confusing.

  Matt Slayer Oh, it was a non-monogamous thing. I was like, OK, this has been discussed on the show so many fucking times. Sorry for any future partners who ever watched my content be like, Jesus Christ, Matt had chlamydia, wants to talk about it for fuckin six years.

  Blake Blossom Six years?

  Matt Slayer Yeah. It was.

  A traumatic for you.

  Matt Slayer Huh? The show's been going on for six years, though, and I come in here from her in 20. 15.

  Blake Blossom OK?

  It's what caused you to do this, right? It is a life changing moment.

  Matt Slayer No.

  Blake Blossom Is the reason I started this podcast is because I got chlamydia.

  Matt Slayer It's super. Wasn't like, honestly, as I've said multiple times on the show, the only thing I was upset about in the whole situation is that she took zero ownership in the situation. I fucking pop dirty. I hit her up because she was the last person in Fox. I'm like, Yo, you need to get tested. I'm out of.

  Concern.

  Matt Slayer Right? And we weren't even seeing each other at that point. Like, she was upset with some of my behavior and we had stopped seeing each other at that point.

  Blake Blossom OK.

  Matt Slayer Mostly because I'd moved my ex-girlfriend to my house and like, yeah, that was a whole other new it was a non-monogamous a sudden. So I didn't think I needed her. Like, Hey.

  Blake Blossom If there's no rules, there's no fucking.

  Matt Slayer Rules, there's no fucking rules. And her response was, Oh, you obviously got blackout drunk and fucked somebody else. Because I came back clean, though she did claim I just done a round of antibiotics for a lung infection. Like, that's how antibiotics work. They kill back.

  And you know what's really sad, Matt, is like when you get into porn, there is no book that says.

  Blake Blossom Hey.

  At least when I signed my contract with my agency, I had to it was required that I had to read like a four page thing about eating disorders. I was glad that that was in there because you start being on camera all the time and you start doing weirder shit and you're around other people that start doing some weird shit.

  Matt Slayer And once again, once we were talking about earlier the comments, as you know, if you were a little self-conscious about a little bit of Pudge or whatever, like.

  I love your belly, Blake.

  Matt Slayer Once again, girl, I'm this.

  Blake Blossom Is.

  Matt Slayer I'm here in real life, there is no belly.

  Blake Blossom Sink, you.

  See? And this is was fucked up. I don't believe you go.

  Blake Blossom I'm sick. I'm sick in the head.

  Matt Slayer Cause you don't have to believe me. I'm not here to sell you on it. I just figured.

  Hopefully one day someone will say it to me and it'll stick.

  Matt Slayer Hopefully, if they do, they do the don't they don't. But I. Earl, there is no belly.

  Blake Blossom So stop commenting. Stop it.

  Matt Slayer I have a huge gut, but it's ok. Every time someone, like, tries to, like, fashion me, I'm like, motherfucker. I see myself naked all the time. Like, I know.

  That's another thing that's that's in porn is there's that's very big, too. That's very big, too. Is fat shaming and it's like, why would I want to fat shame you and people fat shame me.

  Matt Slayer I mean, it could be your tank.

  Blake Blossom My kink is what I get bullied about being you.

  I like being my is being bullied. There's probably a kink.

  Matt Slayer Oh, it's not working for some people. Yeah, they're really people. Thank you.

  Blake Blossom Yeah.

  If you go my adult DVD talk page and you look at it, so I think it's about like 22 pages now, which is pretty big.

  Matt Slayer Now, here's one that's pretty full.

  Fuck. It's a lot of things on there. And so I was a moderator on there and there I had a message them and it was like, Can you please delete my comments of what I was saying to people? Because there was also speculation that I had my boobs done and I was like, What's how you look at someone who has fake boobs?

  It's, I mean, even if they look natural, you just now so that that's that got a.

  Matt Slayer Job, one.

  That got in my.

  Matt Slayer Head a little bit. I mean, there are definitely some people that don't necessarily like implants, but they look at that transfers.

  Well, that's like a new thing. But like guys don't know like that. But I haven't done anything like that.

  Matt Slayer Oh, my God, I'm not a guy anymore. Fuck.

  Like normal guys, they look at like natural makeup and they're like, she's not wearing any makeup. And it's like she's got a full fucking lap. She's got on bronzer, high light, she's got a fuckin wash a color in her crease.

  Matt Slayer At what age did you realize my gender is idiots? What it is, is like, dudes are dumb.

  Blake Blossom I'm still learning to learn.

  Matt Slayer And realize we're fucking idiots.

  I don't think all men are idiots. I don't have that. Like, I hate men mentality.

  Matt Slayer I am a dude. I recognize we are fucking dumb.

  I think they just. They just choose to not know this.

  Matt Slayer I mean, it's just. I know it's. It's a combination of ego society and a whole bunch of things, but it makes us fucking dumb and a lot of things like.

  Like about, like, periods I would say guys are like, periods are like the number one thing where they're like.

  Blake Blossom So what, what happens?

  Like, you just bleed out of there. And I'm like, no, it's like, my uterus, like, it sheds.

  Blake Blossom What? What do you mean it sheds?

  Or they're like, you know, they don't know the anatomy. And they're like, what's the labia.

  Matt Slayer There's two of them. There's a labia majora and the Libyan menorah, I mean, yeah, yeah, yeah. Anyone who can identify where your clit is, you should not fuck.

  Blake Blossom It's been a while. I try to only fuck on camera.

  Matt Slayer That's sad. That's the little sad look. No real is.

  Blake Blossom Agree.

  Matt Slayer OK. Well, we can definitely disagree. It's. You're fucking your sex life. I think it's sad because, like, you should have off camera sex that's fucking intimate with someone you actually give a fuck about. In my opinion, if you're happy with what you're doing, fucking keep doing what you do. But at the end of the day, porn sex isn't fucking real.

  Matt Slayer It's acting. It's the people you have sex with on camera are there to make you look esthetically pleasing on camera. It's not necessarily about intimacy or having a good time or any of that shit. So no, I think you should have some off camera sex with someone you actually enjoy having time with.

  I don't know. I think I kind of got used to like. I like filming. I like fucking in front of a camera. I don't. I don't know. I don't know what it is. I think it's just the knowledge of like someone else is going to see what, what's going on right now. Even if, even if I'm like fucking someone, like for my only fans and it's just a regular clip, I look at the camera a lot of the time, a lot of the time you watch my scenes.

  There's only a few people that I really like Macron, like, really kiss, look into. But for the most part, like, my head.

  Blake Blossom This is.

  Position to where the camera can see my face. Every fucking orgasm, regardless of it's real fake. You bet. You bet your ass. My face is going to be right there in the fucking camera. I'm not looking at bro over here. I'm looking at the fan there, the camera. I just always.

  Blake Blossom Assume.

  Matt Slayer You're making love to the camera. I get it.

  Yeah, I just like it. I think I started becoming that way because I removed that out of my life. I was like, I don't want to fuck anyone off camera. You all are liars. When my feelings are getting hurt, because they lie to me. And the problem with fucking people in porn is that they're fucking.

  Blake Blossom Other people in porn.

  Matt Slayer Don't necessarily fuck people in porn.

  OK, let me tell you story. I had a secret boyfriend for like less than 90 days last year. OK, I go to the club with my agent or my agent at the time. Ryan we go to the club. I got. I've been recognized at this club multiple times.

  Matt Slayer What kind of club is this? A strip club. This is a dance club. What kind of club?

  It's like a bar club, but they have a pool.

  Blake Blossom To do at.

  My in Scottsdale, Arizona. Old Town. Fuck, I'll tell you where it's at. Maya, I get recognized that Maya a lot free promo.

  Blake Blossom Bits Maya let me out.

  So I've been recognized there a couple times. I have a couple of friends who work as bouncers among, like, all the clubs oh, my God. I started to think about something else. Fuck. What was I talking about? Matt?

  Matt Slayer Secret boyfriend.

  OK, so we're at the club. Everything was chill. I see someone that I knew from my nannying days, and I was like, oh, my God, this is crazy. Like, someone knows the real me here, you know, because I go out is blake all the time.

  Matt Slayer Like, as you should. You're a fucking personality, right?

  So I start. We like me. I was with Chloe Temple and Ryan Air with some other people, and this group of guys was, like, next to us, and one of the guys comes.

  Blake Blossom Out, and Ryan is like, hey, bro, is that Blake? Bless oh, I got some.

  So I was like, yeah, you want to talk to her? Like, yeah, she'll talk to you. She's superficial. I'll talk to you. Just be nice. Don't be fucking creepy. Be like.

  Blake Blossom Hey, baby, when you know, like, that.

  Like, creepy little vibe. So he came over, he was talking to me, and so he the little friend group he was with, it wasn't the guy I was talking to is another guy in the friend group. So I'm talking this guy. World Show. World Show. He kind of gets boring to talk to. So I'm like, OK, you have a good night.

  And I go sit down on the couch next to this guy in a mustache. A guess what I said. So what's the story with the mustache? And honestly, in my head, I was like, this is a porno like intro. Like, Oh, so what's with the mustache? And so I introduced myself as Blake Blossom right? I didn't introduce myself as me.

  I'm just Hi. You know, I'm Blake Blossom, and he's like, oh, yeah.

  Matt Slayer Like you do. Full name.

  Blake Blossom Yeah.

  I always say my full name.

  Matt Slayer On one hand. Proud of you on that because, like, fuckin ten plus years have been bachelor. I still have problems being a hire. Metzler like.

  Blake Blossom Really.

  Matt Slayer I'm just like, hey, I'm out. Like, it's so proud of you on that. But it's also, like, because in the back of my head, it's I feel like, oh, do I really? Oh, full name. But continue.

  Blake Blossom Yeah, I guess.

  I just always say I'm Blake Blossom.

  Matt Slayer No, no.

  Like, everyone's, like, if I've ever saying someone's name, like, like, for example, like, I won't say just Chloe. I'll say, like, Chloe Temple. So you know exactly what I'm talking about. Like, I don't just say Blake.

  Matt Slayer No, no, I totally get it. I totally get it.

  You better.

  Matt Slayer It's my fucking issue. Not yours. I'm proud of you being, like, two and a half years in stage name, but.

  I fucking introduce myself as Blake Blossom, and I think that was, like, the initial, like, why the fuck would I do that? But so he wasn't, like, really giving me, like, a lot of, like, he didn't know who I was. He doesn't really watch porn because I asked him, was like, hey, you, like, watch a lot of porn?

  Like, I'm an adult film. He was like, no, not really. You know, he tells me, like, what he does for work, and we kind of get along a little bit. And so I'm like, yeah, let me get your number. I asked him for his number.

  Matt Slayer Good on you.

  OK, I like being aggressive towards guys.

  Blake Blossom So you were.

  I like being forward. I'll say forward. Maybe forward is a better word.

  Matt Slayer I mean, you've said both still being recorded.

  Blake Blossom Both.

  Forward and or aggressive. And so we got to we go like get breakfast. And I kissed him in the car and everything's fine. But, you know, this is where my immaturity comes out. I was like, I want to go with his phone. I love going through people's phones. If I start talking to them, you bet your ass I'm going to go through your phone.

  Matt Slayer Why why would you do that?

  Blake Blossom I don't know.

  I don't know why I like doing that. I just really I find this user. Why maybe even if I find something in there that's, like, damning, like, I might not I might not say anything. I might sit on it for a while.

  Matt Slayer It's part of me thing.

  Blake Blossom Think so?

  Matt Slayer Definitely. I wouldn't have said it's for me. I didn't think I was fucked up.

  Blake Blossom I've done it multiple times.

  Matt Slayer Yeah, that's.

  Fine. Some people, I've never told that I've gone through their phone.

  Matt Slayer Yeah, it's one of those.

  And I know what to look for, too.

  Matt Slayer What are you looking for?

  Well, sometimes it's the notes app, sometimes it's voice memos. Sometimes if I. If I really deep diving I would say when I used to have, like, a super crazy ex-boyfriend, like I would go through his fucking email, but I found I found exactly what I was looking for in the email because I needed evidence but so I went through his phone and I found that he was like texting another girl that he worked with, like, oh, I love you, you know, all this shit.

  And I just realize just why am I giving the time of day to anyone that is messaging someone? I love you. Why am I even in the picture.

  Matt Slayer I agree, but that's a super fucked up way to go about it.

  You would have never fucking told me ever, ever, ever, ever, ever. And maybe, maybe I like exposing secret maybe I like to really, like, pull those.

  Blake Blossom Pull those fucking troops out of them. Like, I'm.

  Yanking teeth out, you know? But I just feel like a lot of people have really dark, deep secrets, and I'm very open. Like, if you ask me something, for the most part, I'll kind of open up and tell you I'm. I mean, I admitted I had a fucking rhinoplasty. I was trying to keep that a secret for, like, a year, but not like me.

  Blake Blossom I'm really going to get another one. So you guys are going to notice.

  Matt Slayer Athena, you've admitted to escorting rhinoplasty like you were an open book.

  Blake Blossom In the state of Arizona.

  It's against its prostitution law to be paid for pornography, pornographic film.

  Matt Slayer Oh, now that's against the law everywhere. But California, New Hampshire.

  I only know.

  Blake Blossom Arizona.

  Matt Slayer Is.

  Well in my county. Isn't it legal in my county by county?

  Matt Slayer Prostitution, legal in brothels. Mm. The law is completely different than porn law.

  Blake Blossom Interesting.

  Matt Slayer This is something that has been touched on multiple times. In the show. But at the end of the day, New Hampshire legally has on the books that pornography is legal. California has it on the books, it being legal by a state Supreme Court ruling everywhere else, everywhere else. It is illegal in Nevada has a ruling from the state Supreme Court that says because of California's ruling they are not going to enforce everywhere else is technically illegal.

  Matt Slayer The main point. Hmm. Because even if you are not doing prostitution, if you are just producing porn, like if I am just like shooting camera fucking producing, I'm violating pandering laws. Hmm. But we got sidetracked on you. It's a million dudes.

  Blake Blossom This is not good. This is not good.

  Can you can you really get in trouble for saying stuff on the Internet like this?

  Matt Slayer Yes and no.

  Blake Blossom Hmm.

  Matt Slayer At the end, if everyone if investigators were competent and we were not allegedly talking about hypothetical situations, which we are we're not talking about real things. This is a comedy show. We're talking about hypotheticals. You would have to prove that.

  I could be a fucking liar.

  Matt Slayer Exactly. You would be telling a story. You be line telling the story. None of this necessarily is fucking true. Real proof time and date like I didn't go public. So that escort gig, it happened. It just. It was like, yeah, it is. The burden of proof is on law enforcement. To prove that you are guilty beyond a reasonable doubt.

  Matt Slayer When you are committing a crime, they have to produce the evidence.

  I have a really good attorney, so.

  Matt Slayer Maybe you with what you have provided during this podcast, you don't even have to. You could get off with a public defender, be like, Yo, bro, when did this happen? Or What hotel did it happen? Oh, so it happened somewhere in Clark County, Nevada. Oh, yeah. Don't worry about.

  It. See, this is this is the part of of that I like to person mentality where it's like as Blake, I want to say so much so and then I'm like, fuck, I might get in trouble for saying stuff, but whatever, whatever, whatever I'm going back to the boyfriend.

  Matt Slayer So I love that we just did a porn law and then you're like, oh yeah. And the boyfriend.

  Blake Blossom Oh, my God.

  So the problem wasn't that he was saying, I love you to this bitch on the phone. He shaved off his mustache, and that's when I kind of was like.

  Blake Blossom No.

  I don't think I like you anymore.

  Matt Slayer So I don't know how fresh into a relationship to start going through people's phones.

  That was like it was kind of near the end. So it was like two months then. So but, but I will say that if I'm giving you lots of opportunity and space to be open and honest and talk about stuff and you're choosing to clam up on me, and you're choosing to be very selective about what type of information you're telling me.

  Oh, I want to know. I can you I can tell, like for having a story with someone and we're talking and I can tell when they like leave certain parts out because they either maybe.

  Matt Slayer They just through it.

  Blake Blossom Yeah. Yeah.

  But the thing about him is that he also confronted me about going through his phone. I don't know how he knew that I went through his phone because I, I didn't really mess with anything and I only went through apps that were already open.

  Blake Blossom So.

  Matt Slayer Well, you got fucked up and I made more yeah.

  I guess I never really thought about how he found out. I don't know. But the whole thing about that situation, like I will say this like I'm a fucking great girlfriend. Like I was calling him face shaming him every day, like letting him. I wasn't like sharing, like, diesel's like, oh yeah, I fucking came like nine times today during this cock scene.

  It wasn't like I was doing bad.

  Matt Slayer And anyone who was actually dating a performer should be OK with hearing that noise.

  Yeah, because then you then you, like, start, like, not saying anything and you, like, feel bad that you're like, you want to say, oh, I had an awesome day doing this, and that person, like, you're going to be like, oh, my God. They're going to think that.

  Matt Slayer You know, like, if you come home and you're dating a performer and she's like, how was your day on onset? Like, oh, it was blah, blah. Whatever happened yo, let me draw you in and solve that. Like, that's how it should be.

  Like, I've never had anyone make me a Beth. I've never had any really good boyfriends.

  Blake Blossom Honestly.

  Matt Slayer You that time.

  Blake Blossom Oh, my God.

  That, like, already makes me, like, so stressed out, like, thinking about someone, like, being at my house, like, making a.

  Blake Blossom Bath for me. I'd be like.

  Matt Slayer Fuck, I'm not so good. Break in and dry you.

  Know, just like, the idea of, like, someone being in my life like that close to me that they would, like, want to draw me a bath. Like, that kind of freaks me out a little bit. And I think that was, like, part of the reason why I gravitated away from him is because I just felt like I was I was telling him too much about myself and, like, too much about, like, my experiences and then, like.

  Matt Slayer It wasn't reciprocal.

  Like, no. And that's what that's another thing that I was like, OK, well, I'm telling you all this stuff about like my childhood and, and funny experiences and kind of traumatic experiences that have happened to me. And you're just being like, oh, my God, that's so funny.

  Matt Slayer Well, that's fucked.

  Like, what the fuck is that? But it's like, so I was, I was filming in Vegas, and I said, Oh, my God, do you have the weekend off? You have like four days off. So I like I'll just if you want to come out to Vegas, like, I'll get a room and like, we'll have a great time and blah, blah, blah.

  So I ended up buying him a ticket out, but the flight that I wanted him to come on all the tickets left were first class. So I was like, OK, I'll just buy him a first class ticket. Like I put it on my card, I get points on anyways for it. So I'm like, this is just going to go into an expense and so I flew him out to Vegas fucking there and back flight from Arizona, and he almost missed a flight too.

  I was so fucking pissed. I was like, You better get on that motherfucking plane.

  Matt Slayer Five hour drive. He should have just drove. Drove up from fucking.

  Well, he had some issues with this truck, but I'm getting to the point that, like, this is all boiling down to and it's all about money. So he stayed at me. We were.

  Matt Slayer At.

  One of the hotels that I've never seen there before, so he flew him took an Uber. We met, we were having fucking showed him the room. I got a really nice room.

  Blake Blossom Because I.

  Like I stay in Vegas all the time, so I'm like, I want a nice room. Like, I'm not going to be staying and looking at the goddamn parking lot. Like, I want to have a nice view.

  Blake Blossom I go to Vegas all the time and why would I want to look at a parking.

  Garage and so we go to a couple of different restaurants that are like really nice, right? Like we go to the restaurants in the Win and Encore. Most of those in there are pretty nice.

  Matt Slayer Fancy pants.

  Fucking fancy pants. I took him to like STK for a brunch and they had like a live saxophone player that day. And like, I didn't fucking play in the saxophone player, but I was like, Damn, they knew I was coming.

  Blake Blossom Out the saxophone.

  But the problem about that trip is that not once did I say, Do you want to split it? Do you want to like you want to pay for this one? No, because it's my trip. I invited you on it. I'm paying for it. And he can't afford a $250 dinner at Barstow or whatever the fuck we were at, like he can't afford that.

  So it's like am I putting him in a situation to fail? And that's why I was like, I don't give a fuck because I'm.

  Blake Blossom Not staying at a fucking Holiday Inn. I'm not going to fucking travel every day. I'm not going.

  In and fucking shopping at these stores. That that's not my vibe. It's not my lifestyle. And that's what I had to realize because I took him to the Versace store, and I like, I don't have a lot of designer things. Like I have a couple of Balenciaga shoes and I have a couple of Judith Lieber bags.

  Matt Slayer There's a bunch more than me.

  But it's not like I'm walking around in Versace and Gucci tracksuits and wearing, you know, Cartier bracelets and wearing Rolexes and, you know, doing that type of stuff. So I love fragrance, so we were looking at the men's fragrance. I was looking at all the fun, you know, cool bags that they had in the store. I just like appreciating the fashion.

  When the fuck am I going to wear a fucking clutch that's like $5,000. That's like.

  Matt Slayer You fucking want to.

  Blake Blossom I don't know, I don't go out to.

  Clubs and I do do anything like that. So for me, until I get to the point when I need designer clothes, then I'll buy them. But it was a fucking struggle. I'm like, this is a fuckin outta toilet. Like little fuckin mini sample size. It's $100. Please let me buy it for you. Arrows, flame. Like, really, I'd love to buy you again.

  Thank you so much for coming to Vegas with me and having a wonderful weekend. I had so much fun, I could not fucking accept it. And what was the point? That I got.

  Matt Slayer Rid of fucking Bruce's ego or some shit?

  Maybe, but I don't do it in a way that's like, Oh, well, I'm paying for everything. Like, I genuinely want to pay. Like, I genuinely would rather have a good time and go to places that I want to fucking go to and be like, Oh, you can only afford a $90 dinner. I'm not going to have a good time because if it's my idea and I'm like, I want to go to this restaurant and get this fucking crab salad or whatever the fuck we're going to go get the crab salad.

  I'm going to have a good night. Because if I'm sitting over here feeling like I'm not enjoying what's going on, I you're going to have a sassy.

  Blake Blossom Plate and I'm not going to suck your dick.

  But it was, it was so interesting because then we go to the Tom Ford store, and I have a lot of Tom Ford makeup. I have a lot of the Tom Ford perfume, a lot of the candles. And I visually saw how uncomfortable he was being in that store and being around me. He was genuinely really uncomfortable. And that's when I kind of knew I was like, this isn't going to work.

  I'm not even buying anything. We're walking around the store and he's like visibly so uncomfortable. And I was just like, this isn't going to.

  Matt Slayer Work, unfortunately, because you know how a lot of dudes raised. It's an uncomfortable situation where, like, you know, their partner is a fucking better bread earner than they are that we as dudes are expensive. We must provide. I'm like, Oh, shit, you made fucking five, ten times. What if I can do? Oh, what do I do here, bro?

  Matt Slayer You sit back and you enjoy it. Like someone who is the object of thousands of people fucking orgasms. They're the object of all their lust wants to fucking be with you and wants to spend their hard earned money on you. You fucking go, hell yeah. Holy fuck. I get so lucky I won the fucking lottery here.

  And I felt that he was very unappreciative. And it's not like I was looking for him to say thank you and.

  Matt Slayer Beg, but you should be. But at the end of the day, at the end of the day, I don't give a fuck. If you were spending $0.30 on me on a Hallmark card or thousands of dollars or hundreds of dollars, I'll fucking dinner.

  Blake Blossom Yeah.

  Matt Slayer You should be appreciative of the fucking effort.

  Yeah. And I just realized I was like, this is. And then he confronted me about going through his phone, and then I was like, This is fucking over with. And then I accidentally, like, FaceTimed him a couple times.

  Matt Slayer Accidentally, accidentally.

  You know, like, so. So I have multiple phones, so I was whole. I hold like two.

  Blake Blossom Items.

  My two or three phones at a time. And so I had set him as like an emergency contact on my phone because he's an emergency medicine. And so it fucking called him because I was like clicking the side and it was at an awards show that I kind of fucking award at and I was like, damn. And then you know what I did?

  I sent a picture of that fucking award I got and I said, You punk ass bitch. No, I didn't say that. I was like.

  Matt Slayer You thought it bought it?

  I said, Yeah, I got this award tonight, by the way.

  Blake Blossom For all my hard work.

  Matt Slayer So you picked the wrong dude. I don't know that you picked the wrong dude. That doesn't mean that you shouldn't fucking get back on that fucking horse.

  I saw what my problems were I should not be introducing, but that's the thing. It's like, how do I know when to introduce myself as Blake and when to introduce myself as me?

  How? Because I don't want to tell people my real name, but it it develops a sense of a false relationship because it's not me. Like, do you want to date Blake Blossom? Because that girl's a fuckin, like, she'll fuck everyone, you know, she's she's busy. She's on the go. She's out in vegas, she's out in l.a. She's on miami.

  She's out doing shit, you know? And then there's me where it's like, oh, well, wow. She's a businesswoman, and she's doing all this stuff and yada, yada yada.

  Matt Slayer You have to decide time and place at the end. Time and fucking place. But you shouldn't just cut your fucking stuff off because you had a couple bad experiences.

  Blake Blossom I know I shouldn't be on either people's phone. I admit I should not.

  Be going through people's phone, and i don't go through everyone's phone. I will say that like.

  Blake Blossom It's all about.

  You in the past. Like, don't assume that I've been through your phone. There's some people that I don't think.

  Matt Slayer It would at this point that.

  I don't even.

  Blake Blossom Bother going through their phones.

  Matt Slayer Wow. You don't even rent going through your phone. Fuck wow. Wow, bro. Like, oh, it doesn't even feel you're worth going through. Have gone through your phone over. Yeah, that's true. That's right.

  And what was the most the takeaway that I learned from that was it's not the right time and place for me to be having someone in my life that doesn't really help me with my work because my work is 90% of my life. So it's like, if you're not going to be helping me take pictures or you're not going to be cool, like helping me fill my solo.

  Blake Blossom Or.

  You're not going to be cool, like looking at, hey, is this trailer OK, Mike? Does this look OK? Like, if you were to watch it, would you want to buy this video? Like, that's, that's the kind of person that I am that I would feel most comfortable with is someone that's comfortable with the fact that I'm.

  Matt Slayer As you should as I don't give a fuck if you're doing porn, comedy, whatever you want your fucking partner to give you honest fucking feedback on the content you fucking create. Like, I haven't fucking forbid I get in a relationship with someone. I'm like, Yeah, what do you think of the show? And like, I'm fucking silence that I've got to fucking work.

  Matt Slayer You need to tell me what the fuck you think of what the fuck I do. Do you know how much fucking time, effort energy I put into this shit? Like, yeah, I need to know. Like I don't give a fuck about respecting enough, but I need your honest feedback yeah.

  And that's what's very hard about deciphering relationships because porn skews. So say that I was I started talking to a performer and we hit it off. Everything's great. Well, there's what if we don't, you know? Then there becomes that, like, awkward.

  Blake Blossom Professional.

  Thing where it's like a fuck. Well, now I can't fuck you for scenes because you hate me, you know? So it's very tedious. I would say tedious to like, really kind of understand what what the goal is of, like, why do you want to talk to me? I think that's what I need to figure out more is like if you want to talk to me, if someone like does starts trying to talk to me and like build a relationship, I think I should ask, like, why more.

  Matt Slayer I don't know. I mean, yes, you should find out here.

  Blake Blossom Like, maybe, I don't know, girl.

  Matt Slayer Want you find out like what people's motivations are like, oh, hey, I saw you sitting. I think you're hot is not necessarily what you should build a relationship on. Mm hmm. But unfortunately, the human condition is like, Oh, you're hot is generally the opener of why I'm try to find out more. Like, there are some probably some amazing girls out there.

  Matt Slayer I'm not trying to find out harsh truths.

  Blake Blossom You're saying? Oh, my God.

  Matt Slayer Like, at the end of that is like, oh, jesus, I I have awards shows I have to go to. I can't have you on my arm. Like, you could be fucking amazing, but.

  And then goes back to the judgment of other people be like, Why are you fucking.

  Blake Blossom That.

  Matt Slayer Guy? And that's also very.

  Complicated in general relationships. And doing porn is very complicated because you think everyone's your boyfriend for a couple of hours and then you're like, Oh my God.

  Matt Slayer Well, porn in relationships has always been super complicated because at the end of the day, like trying to find someone who actually understands what you do for a living, which is hard as fuck in the first place. And then you have to find someone who condones what you do for a living if they actually understand it.

  Yeah.

  Matt Slayer And then you have to find someone who's not going to cause a bunch of fucking drama or fucking negatively impact your fucking profession over it.

  Yeah. Or they could dox me if they find my real name, if they pictures of my IDs, if they know where I live, like there's serious repercussions to like.

  Blake Blossom I mean, someone.

  Matt Slayer If you ever like someone you're involved is going to you run like, holy fuck, that is the worst thing I ever fucking heard. Like, I've seen some massive breadcrumbs, but the idea was like, someone's going to fucking dox you because like, oh my God, we're not in love anymore. Or That is the fucking worst thing I ever fucking heard.

  Yeah, that's the paranoia I live with. Even if someone's my friend and you come to my house, they know where I live. I tell you my name. We got fucking problems.

  Matt Slayer Do we have problems? You know where I live?

  No, but I'm just saying.

  Matt Slayer How can I trust you? Place how can I trust you? Now you put it out the fucking world how can I fucking trust you?

  Blake Blossom I live in paranoia that every.

  Every second someone's going to try and fucking cancel me or get me. I don't know I live a paranoid life.

  Matt Slayer I live a paranoid life, too. But also, like, I also hope that I'm famous enough to be canceled.

  You would want to be cancel.

  Matt Slayer That income for me.

  Oh, my God.

  Matt Slayer Because at the end of the day, what I do for a fucking profession, unless I get to Infowars, Alex Jones fucking getting kicked off iTunes level you can't stop what I do for a living. I can continue to put out podcasts. Yeah. No matter what you say about me on the internet, please don't try. I really don't want to test this theory.

  Matt Slayer I do not want to test this theory. But theoretically, if you could do. You would do what I do. No matter what people fucking come for. I'm not trying to, like, just throw fucking wild shit out there to be careful, but I see some wild shit occasionally.

  Yeah. Like, there's this one guy who talks about.

  Blake Blossom How.

  If your girl has an Instagram, it's cheating. And he's, like, all over the internet, and he likes his the most outrageous claims.

  Matt Slayer Yeah, there's a lot of.

  And I'm like, is he purposely doing this to get canceled? Like, is he purposely trying to be that guy?

  Matt Slayer There's a lot of idiots on the Internet, but. But what? Going back I'm saying, as an old man, you shouldn't close yourself off to love because you've had some bad experiences.

  I'm closed off for now. Actually, right now I do have a really big crush on someone, but as someone in the industry and yeah, I have to be very careful about it. Why because of the power dynamic.

  Matt Slayer Of the director.

  Well, leave it at that.

  Matt Slayer That's a yes. All right. All right.

  Someone higher up than me.

  Blake Blossom In some aspects not on porn. I'm ranking but.

  The thing about that is I have to kind of dig deep in myself and think, like, why do I like people? Am I like you? Because I have sex with you all the time.

  Or do I like you because we have great conversation and we're connecting from person to person. And that's what I'm struggling with right now is that I don't know if I truly like people because I just fuck them all the time and I just am around them or if I truly like them. But you have to think about it like I'm not that I'm two faced, but I'm a very fake version of myself on set, very fake.

  I will say that like if you've met me in person, like, like there's this shit that we're talking like now and like off like that bit, but like if I'm on set, I'm like, oh my God, hey, girl. Oh, my God. So nice to meet you.

  Blake Blossom I suddenly value back.

  When sometimes I'm like.

  Blake Blossom I don't fucking care.

  Matt Slayer But I'm saying don't close yourself off. If it feels right, go for it. No risk, no reward.

  Yeah. It's just that a crush for now.

  Blake Blossom Is that a crush?

  Matt Slayer It could develop. Go for maybe as an old fucking man. Don't have hard and fast rules. Play to the fucking moment. You never fucking know what's going to fucking happened. You don't fucking know. Should can on goddamn time. You might as well like a five year. Plans are fucking bullshit. If it fucking works out, it works out. If it doesn't.

  Blake Blossom If I.

  Had a five year plan for porn, I was like, if I don't have awards in five years, like, I'll.

  Blake Blossom Quit. And then I'm like, fuck, when am I supposed do? These are two and a half years. Like, dammit, here I'm dying. I don't know what else to do.

  Matt Slayer Keep making porn, Blaine. Keep making porn.

  Blake Blossom I fucking will.

  Probably for a long time.

  Blake Blossom Right now.

  It's just. It's very hard as a young woman to be so vulnerable all the time around. A lot of people. And then also want to be vulnerable with one person.

  Matt Slayer Yeah, but that should, in theory, be different levels of vulnerability. Like the people you meet on set, the people you have sex with on set should get Blake. Whoever you're actually involved with should get know the real, the real.

  Yeah. But like I said, I feel like I live two lives, and those lines get very blurred as they mesh together, and I get very confused.

  Matt Slayer It's hard not to it's super hard not to, but at the end of day, like, you should try, if that's what you really want, if you don't fucking live your life like, don't don't be like, oh, hey, drunk podcaster, tell me how I should live.

  But I told you how I behave in relationships. Like, I get that to that, like, little jealous fucking monster living inside of me, you know? Or like, I will.

  Matt Slayer Hopefully on because I.

  Don't trust anything you say.

  Matt Slayer Hopefully at some point you get involved with someone who you know, Olivia it's all of that shit alleviates that fucking pressure.

  Blake Blossom Fucking send them over. Oh, my God. Why are only I feel like guys, the guys that.

  Actually like do get to that stage that talks to me and then we're, like, real.

  Blake Blossom We're like, real close. I don't know.

  Let me ask you this. Let me ask you this. So I've had multiple experiences where I like someone more than they like me, and I get really fucking pissed. What is that? Because and it happens even when I'm in porn and I like someone a lot and then they don't like me back. What is that about? And I get I get very, very, very, like, insecure and butthurt.

  Matt Slayer Well, you're projecting your projecting your expectations, and when your positions are met, you get upset about it. That's OK. Like, it is so much easier in life to if you have fucked. I've also tried to have a fucking whiskey, so we've done.

  Blake Blossom This one I'm sorry. And you want to drink that? Why do you drink it? I can smell it.

  Matt Slayer You want to smell now?

  Blake Blossom Oh yeah.

  Matt Slayer So it is. If your expectations are high and the other people don't meet your expectations, it's a fucking fall.

  A disappointment.

  Matt Slayer Right? So if you keep your aspirations low, it's a must. It's a.

  Do you really think I would.

  Blake Blossom Have low expectations?

  Matt Slayer No. And that's possibly a problem.

  I just think it's. It's kind of like the golden rule. If I'm treating you really great and I'm sharing all the things with you, I want you to reciprocate it.

  Matt Slayer Well, obviously, obviously, you want that like.

  I give really. But I get really angry, and personally, I feel like I'm personally attacked. If they don't do that.

  Matt Slayer Well, that makes sense. Hmm. Especially if you're intimate. With someone, then, like, if you're what you're putting forth is not reciprocated. I understand why you would be upset about that shit. You're not supposed to hit that it's just what.

  And then the lights go down.

  Matt Slayer Then in the expectations versus reality, the conflict is a very fucking real thing. Can be fucking painful.

  Blake Blossom Yeah, I don't know why I have.

  I feel like a lot of my expectations are very unrealistic.

  Blake Blossom How do I fix it? Maybe I just got to wait no. Just kind of wait it out. Find some.

  Find someone to come to me. I got to stop looking. That's what people say. When you stop looking for shit, it finds you. And I never really believed in it because I was like, Fuck that. That's some fucking hippie shit. I don't believe what you all are saying. But then every now and then, I'm like, Oh, I didn't even know that was.

  Matt Slayer I don't even know. I don't know. But I'm of two minds of it. Like, my most successful relationship was something that I definitely was not looking for. It was me.

  Blake Blossom That gives me hope.

  Matt Slayer That most successful has also caused a lot of fucking drama.

  Blake Blossom So the back pedal, back pedal.

  Matt Slayer What I want to have was like it was super successful. And then over a decade of like weird fucking trauma out of it from, you know, to very broken people trying to come together, see.

  And I've never dated someone like the one crazy ex-boyfriend I had who is like really bad. I dated him from I was 17 until I was like 19 and a half.

  Blake Blossom And I remember.

  Walking into fucking court with my little brother having to go to court with my fucking phone and showing the judge really, hi, I'm here for a restraining order. So I think that that relationship and all the bullshit that happened then and experiencing like serious someone who has like serious undiagnosed mental issues like, like a bad, like, really bad.

  I think maybe that kind of had such a really negative view towards me. But at the same time, I'm glad I saw those red flags, but I wish it wasn't extreme and I wish it didn't go through that fucking trauma, but that was only like a year and a half. So I I guess almost two years, almost, just almost till two years.

  But I couldn't imagine like dating someone for ten fucking years.

  Matt Slayer Oh no, I didn't dated for ten years. We had oh, we had drama for on and off for ten years.

  That's crazy. You see, like my close girlfriends from high school, like, we're, we've been friends for like nine years now, you know, we almost ten, almost ten years. Then I've had like a couple of friends, but like ten years of drama with like a significant like so many fucked around with I don't like it. That's crazy to me.

  Matt Slayer Oh, whoa oh, good. The low down from the new, the new listeners who are just different like him. So we dated it did not end well, partially due to, you know, my own self-sabotage. Mm hmm. We didn't speak for a number of years. Somehow, like, four years later, split, and she found me on fucking Snapchat, of all things.

  Matt Slayer Oh, my God. I've had the same fucking number for 20 years, so, like. Yeah, so that just pissed off, like, started signing in my fucking DMS at a point where I was like, Oh, hey, Karen lived with me in L.A. For, like, a month, which was a fucking nightmare.

  Blake Blossom Really? Yeah.

  Matt Slayer Like, we were not back together, but in my brain, like, oh, she's moving in with me. Like, I started, like, I just went into boyfriend mode even. It's not really a discussion of, like, reconciling, but, like, I was making a press make us brothers shit like that. Like, it was toxic on my part.

  I miss that when someone needs to make me breakfast. I've only had.

  Blake Blossom Like a couple of times and someone's.

  Made me.

  Blake Blossom Breakfast.

  Matt Slayer Yeah, but I fell into, like, that boyfriend mode. Like, I'm making a bread shopping for is like, a whole fucking thing. After a month, she moved out back to fucking Chicago. And a couple of years, I think we would communicate and, like, I thought everything was completely fucking like, platonic. We talk about, like, both of us were talking about other people we were talking about.

  Matt Slayer You were saying, like, whatever. It was cool. Fast forward to like, early 20, 20 pre-pandemic. Troian She's like, Oh, I want to come out to L.A. and visit you. I cool. That'll be fun. Like, yeah, we'll get drunk, will get ill go stupid. The first night she was in town like it totally turned into like, oh, hey, we're getting drunk at like 3:00 in the morning ordering Thai food and like, it's like all time.

  Matt Slayer She's like feeding me off her plate and shit like, we hook up for the first time in years. Oh, and it was a goddamn nightmare. So I was like, that really should've in the first place was something I never expected. And then it just got weird. It definitely got weird.

  Maybe that's why I'm closed off is because I experienced really crazy fucking trauma that was, like, really bad. Like, I don't, I don't know how, like, graphic we can get on here.

  Matt Slayer As graphic as you want.

  Blake Blossom So.

  Like, he literally said that he wanted to drown me and bury me out in the desert and cover my body with lies, and then no one can ever find me because I was that insignificant. And so when you think when someone's, like, saying this stuff to you all the time.

  Matt Slayer All the time, I totally fucking.

  Well, it's not that specific. There's a couple of times when I was like, you should like, bro.

  Blake Blossom Bro, where are you coming up with this shit? Dexter, you don't stare. What do you.

  Matt Slayer I just want you in the law enforcement involved after the first time was.

  Oh, I mean, I would secretly call the cops on him all the time.

  Matt Slayer Mm. Fuck. And I'm.

  Like, 18, you know, like being a manager, I fucking can't see, like, you know, doing truck shift at fucking 4 a.m., like yours. Also really crazy is when I was in high school, I used to, like, one of my first jobs. Well, I guess it was my first jobs. It was. It was at a cost plus world market, and they have a bunch of fun stuff there, so, like, this is going to be so fun.

  Oh, my God. And turns out of this for truck shift and I had, like, late starts, so I would go from, like, third, fourth, fifth, sixth. So my class, like, didn't start till, like 930. So I would literally work three days a week from like depending on, like what time the truck was coming between like three or 4 a.m. until nine.

  And then I'd go to school.

  Matt Slayer Oh.

  Isn't that crazy? I was like, that breaks only child.

  Blake Blossom Labor I was like, I didn't even have a car yet because.

  I didn't start driving till I was like a senior, like just, just like two weeks before Halloween.

  Blake Blossom My senior year finally got my little Volkswagen Jetta but yeah.

  Maybe, maybe that's.

  Blake Blossom Why I have such an interesting.

  Approach to relationships. But I loved going through his phone. And you know what's so interesting? He so I used to wear, like, a lot more, so maybe I was like 150, 155, like me. I'm like, I was a little heavier, but I was also in like a lot of birth control.

  Blake Blossom I was drinking fucking mass.

  Gainer shakes every day because he was like a bodybuilder. So I was like drinking protein and sharing creatine, I don't know, creatine is it for fucking women? Like I was doing increasing like all the time.

  Blake Blossom And.

  He was watching sites and he would watch like a lot of MILF and like BW porn. And so me being a like, you know, looking through his shit, that was the stuff I was finding. And then I found that he was watching like some gay porn. And then a lot of the stuff he was watching was just guys like doing solos, just jerking their dick.

  And I never told him anything about that, but that induced a lot of like insecurity about like, oh, well, you're watching this. And this is when I hated porn. I used to like be like, oh.

  Blake Blossom Am so gross. And then, and then I would like secretly watch, like, lesbian more when he wasn't home.

  Matt Slayer Obviously none of that shit to do with you. None of that does.

  Know, but I thought it did for sure.

  Matt Slayer I fucking did at the moment. In the moment, I totally understand them.

  But now I'm like, what the fuck?

  Blake Blossom He's just looking up shit.

  Matt Slayer All sorts of shit. And like, that's his issues, not yours.

  But I took it as I'm not, I'm not what you want, you know, like I'm not good enough or even even, like.

  Matt Slayer Has I'm here, you know, obviously you weren't what he wanted, but that has nothing to do with you.

  And you was crazy. I, I think I lived in such, like, a state of fear. Like, sometimes I would, I would think that he was, like, trying to make me gain weight.

  Matt Slayer He wanted to make you a baby.

  W I don't know. I don't know. But yeah, that taught me so much fucking bullshit. And he harassed me for so fucking long after that. I remember going to the police station, and this was, like, so I had to get the restraining order to get off our lease.

  Matt Slayer Oh, yeah, one of them. Oh.

  Yeah. And it was only for four months. And, I mean, I guess. I guess I'll put this in here. So his father was also released from prison around the same time that not that this has anything to do with them. I'm just saying, like, this also caused a lot of stuff because this was the first time I met a prostitute in my house.

  And then also the first time I saw crystal meth being smoked in my fucking apartment.

  Matt Slayer Hashtag Arizona.

  You know what? So it's it's really hard to not, like, not blame myself because I was like, damn, I really put myself in that situation. But at the same time, like, that was such a crazy time, and that led me to such a horrible depression. I was so sad. Oh, my God. And now I'm here and I'm still sad.

  Matt Slayer Cool, superficial. 2 hours that hang out with me is super sad.

  But, yeah, I mean, I truly think, like, that guy was crazy, man. Like, fucking crazy. But so when I got the restraining order, I keep bouncing around. I'm so sorry to everyone who's listening, who's having, like, a stroke, listening to me bounce around.

  Matt Slayer I mean, we've only murdered, like, five times with the strokes that you've caused, so it's fine.

  Blake Blossom I'm sorry. Check out my armpits. Maybe that'll help you guys.

  Matt Slayer I hate to break it to you. A lot of people consume this via audio.

  Blake Blossom Just look of a picture of my armpits.

  Matt Slayer W w w flake blossom armpits dot com.

  Blake Blossom I'm going to buy that fucking domain. I have the Go Daddy app.

  I own like 42 domains.

  Matt Slayer Holy shit. That was the most A.D.D. fully dressed. Yeah.

  Blake Blossom I do Eden Blake dot com. Blake free dot com dot com.

  Matt Slayer I fully respect you don't drink much, but Jesus Christ.

  Blake Blossom I don't need to drink I don't.

  Matt Slayer Need to drink. I really wish you were drinking with me right now because I like as wildest episodes, but I can only imagine how well it's like in dude.

  Blake Blossom OK, well, first of all, I released that. I've told you a lot of shit that I.

  Said no to talking about in interviews, like, so.

  Blake Blossom Long.

  Matt Slayer Well, I appreciate that. Thank you.

  Blake Blossom Fuck you, i, i got to be, you know, candid.

  Like, I can't just keep living out here.

  Matt Slayer Just for me.

  Blake Blossom And I think, bitch, sometimes I get to be real.

  But the thing about.

  Blake Blossom The thing about about the guy is I have to go to the.

  Fucking police station. Guys, he was calling me, like, over 400 times a day. Non stop, no caller ID to the point where I literally went to the police station.

  Matt Slayer Magical is your vagina 400 times a day. Like, I've never had sex with anyone. I would want to call for him.

  What the fuck? I thought he was using like some app to do it. I was like, there's.

  Blake Blossom There's gotta.

  Be like some.

  Blake Blossom App.

  That he's doing or he's hired someone to sit there and do that all day because how is he going to work and like just nonstop calling me all day but was really concerning is that there's two ladies up in the in the office like in a little and they were like, We've never seen anything like this on my phone.

  They had to plug it in because I had to wait for the detective to come. It was maybe like 45 minutes and my phone went from like 70 something percent battery to like down to five from just the amount of time that he was calling because I had to keep my phone on, you know, like I'm someone's texting me like I couldn't get fucking anything done.

  And when the detective was there, he called me and I remember the detective like answered the phone and he immediately hung up. But you know what the most fucked up part was is that they literally told me and my mom, there's nothing we can do until something happens. My mom called the God damn, whoever the fuck is in charge of the police departments, then you're going to wait.

  So my daughter's in a fucking ditch until you go and do something about this guy. And so then the problem with the restraining order was because now they're like, well, you have a restraining order. You just need to serve it to him. They could not find this.

  Blake Blossom Motherfucker, could not.

  Find him. So I had to hire a private.

  Blake Blossom Investigator.

  To fucking follow him because I knew where he lived at his.

  Blake Blossom Mom's house.

  Right. Because he got kicked out of his.

  Blake Blossom Apartment after I got off my lease. Wonder why because you guys are smuggling back in meth and bringing ladies over to my fucking apartment and and. Oh, my God, I just.

  I can't even believe I went through that shit like that.

  Matt Slayer That's fucking wild.

  Fucking crazy, insane. Man.

  Matt Slayer So I understand why you're a little hesitant.

  But the thing about that is, I do place a lot of grant in I don't blame everything on myself, but I do blame myself for staying much longer than I. Than I really needed to. You know, I was checked out a long time before. Why was I there? Why was I there?

  Matt Slayer Hindsight's 20. 20.

  Who fucking knows? Who fucking knows when someone's got their little claws in you.

  Matt Slayer I'm in love.

  But. But I truly felt like I was in love with that guy, too. And that's what's so disgusting that I feel about myself. Sometimes it's like I really, really love that person that literally said they wanted to fucking drown me and was so graphic in the way of, like, saying all these horrible things about me.

  Blake Blossom Oh, and when he found out I did porn. Oh, my God, he.

  I have never heard someone cry like that.

  I've never heard someone cry like.

  Blake Blossom That on the phone. Like just the most.

  Animalistic fucking noises ever and nothing to do with him. It was like a year after I fucking dumped him, too.

  Matt Slayer For sure. You said you were with him in 18? Yeah.

  Blake Blossom Before I.

  Was 18. He was 23 and I was 17. No, 21 and I was 17.

  Blake Blossom There's another problem right there.

  Matt Slayer Potentially. Potentially, yeah. And the problem.

  I know and you know, it's so funny, I've always wanted to do like a YouTube Q&A and talk about it and I was like, Oh my God, I knew it was crazy. His mom was really bad too. Really fucking bad. His mom and his twin sister, they accused me of stealing their makeup. Right. I'm not a tan girl.

  Like, I have a little bit of a tan now because it's summer, but I'm usually pretty pale and the they like spray tanned and like, we're really, really dark, like, you know, like tanned women. And they accuse me of stealing their makeup. Honey, we are the fuck in, like, opposite ends of the color. Well, why do I need your orange fucking shitty foundation from the drugstore when I'm over here using you know why I sell to shit cloth?

  You know, fancy ass $95 foundation hmm.

  Matt Slayer Probably their insecurity, and they want to fucking throw that shit on you.

  I don't. I don't really know what it was. It was a very interesting time and showed me a disgusting family dynamic that I never want in my life.

  Matt Slayer Well, thankfully, you got free of that shit.

  Thank fucking God, dude, I was low. Like, I dropped. Well, I was doing college classes at that time, but he didn't like that. I was taking college classes because he didn't. Yeah, I literally helped him get his GED. I literally was sitting there next to him helping him do practice studies for his GED. And I used to be like a calculus tutor.

  Like, when I got before I got out of high school, before I started smoking so much.

  Matt Slayer We like I take back twice. I really don't date. Don't do it. Like, obviously you're too good for people. Don't, don't, don't, don't do it.

  Blake Blossom I just told you, I and then I told you about my other ex boyfriend. I'm flying.

  Out to Vegas and Georgia.

  Blake Blossom Like I'm a goddamn sugar daddy fucking Blake sugar daddy blossom I.

  Matt Slayer Didn't. I did not mean to fucking destruct like that.

  No, but like I said, like, I'm a very open book. Like, if we go it, if we get into the topic, we'll get into the topic. Like, all my friends know about how fucking insane that was my mom. Oh, and he used to drive to my fucking house, too, and his little fucking mustang. Oh, he also signed out to the side note.

  He made me clabber his fucking mustang one time. Have you ever clabbered an entire car?

  Matt Slayer I have not.

  Days. I was guilted so hard into clay wearing that motherfucker's mustang, but he used to come and drive his little mustang to my mom's house. And you know what that woman did? She walked.

  Blake Blossom Out of the goddamn Shotgun's had.

  You fucking come to my goddamn house again? Your car is not going to be have any fucking tires. Like, you know, whatever she say, you know, you're tired. I'm going to be able drive away.

  Blake Blossom Whenever fucking crazy like she said. But I was like, oh, pop that motherfucker, me ass mom.

  Matt Slayer All this shit.

  Blake Blossom But that's how. That's how intense it got.

  Matt Slayer Goddamn.

  Blake Blossom Hmm. So. So maybe that's why I have. Maybe that's why I'm doing porn.

  Matt Slayer Maybe that's what I hear. A little hesitant to find. Yeah, I get it.

  Maybe I like the superficial Matt. Maybe I really like the superficial relationship. Maybe I like the camera there. I need a buffer.

  Matt Slayer I get it. I get it. Like, I hate.

  Blake Blossom I know we would talk for so long.

  Matt Slayer Call us cons, motherfucker. You are welcome to come back on the show whenever you want.

  Thank you. I'm glad I reached out to you. Yes, I know. I reached out to him.

  Matt Slayer Kind of.

  That's my style.

  Blake Blossom Especially guys with mustaches. I reach out to them.

  Matt Slayer Pull online. I do internet like a publicist, like, recommended she come do the show.

  Blake Blossom Yeah.

  Matt Slayer Shout out to honey house. Who made this happen?

  Blake Blossom Thank you.

  Are we allowed to say his name? Probably not.

  Blake Blossom My girl.

  Matt Slayer No, no. My wife was a member.

  Blake Blossom Patrick McHale.

  Thank you for.

  Blake Blossom Bringing me here.

  Matt Slayer Yes, this was Michael's idea. Thank you, Michael.

  Blake Blossom I told.

  You, I don't need any drinks.

  Blake Blossom And I'm not even smoking weed. I was a little high when I got here, but I took an Uber, so it's OK. But now I'm Gala. We opened up the clam.

  Matt Slayer We did, we did. And the only reason I'm calling last Collins motherfuckers is because I have to do all the post up.

  Blake Blossom I know you're going to be like Jesus Christ. Look.

  Matt Slayer Fucking like, where can they find you on the things?

  Well, if you want to see all my paid content, you can go to eat Blake dot com and.

  Matt Slayer Go, shit.

  Yeah. Well, my thing is, let them eat blake history buffs.

  Matt Slayer Right?

  So if you want to follow me on Twitter, it's be like, be alexis. It's pretty graphic. So you're going to have to be age verified and don't open up my Twitter page in public. It's OK. You can mute me. Just hit that follow. I got deleted on Instagram sam. So until they develop a platform similar to Instagram, I don't have one.

  Blake Blossom So I can break the terms and conditions on there all the time.

  I really do. I really do. Like, it's not a joke. And, you know, if you just want to support me in general, always click on videos of mine, whether it's free paid, it's on the fucking website, it's pirated. I don't give a fucking shit. You're giving me views.

  Blake Blossom And.

  You're a fan of mine whether you like it.

  Blake Blossom Or not.

  So yeah. Thank you so much to everyone who listened and you know, thank you to everyone who purchases porn and supports young women like me. And you know, as crazy as it is, like I'm really out here supporting my life and, you know, making my dreams come true. My men's wallets mainly men's wallets.

  Matt Slayer So couple of wins.

  Blake Blossom Yeah. I don't know the percentages, man.

  Matt Slayer Do they do that and.

  Everyone in between? Hell yeah. Shout out to all our nonbinary folks.

  Matt Slayer Hell, yeah.

  But yeah, thank you so much for having me on here. And if you want to connect with me, I do cam shows.

  Blake Blossom I'm at conventions.

  I'll be giving out an award at ABN, my award that I got this year.

  Blake Blossom I'll be passing the torch along to another young woman who is a business starlet.

  So I can't wait to see who.

  Blake Blossom Is my predecessor. Oh.

  Matt Slayer Hell yeah. Hell yeah. I'm going to the supercross. I are super native. Yes. Well, as always, good for me, because I was on a message on Instagram. Definitely on Facebook. Pushed us to be such Madoff insider patron dot com slash Metzler. You can buy the podcast. And now we're tracking Twitter and now we're going strong. And so I'm doing the super fest.

  Matt Slayer I really need to have a bottle of whiskey that I'm not fucking stop.

  And now I.

  Blake Blossom Drink when the cameras are off.

  Matt Slayer For a couple motherfuckers till next week.

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